My Life, Simply Put

Announcing The Arrival Of....

2008-07-07T00:05:00.001+08:00

Announcing the arrival of our latest addition.

Mohammad Danish Aiman bin Mohammad Rizal

Born on the 24th June '08, 1203 at KK Women's & Children's Hospital.
Weighing 3.28 kg and 48 cm tall with head circumference of 32.5 cm.

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2008-06-11T17:41:00.001+08:00

Bump into an old friend today. And how's your reaction when your friend react like so....hysterically.....

"Oh my God! You're pregnant again?!"
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"But you just given birth last year, right?!"

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"You're pregnant? You're sure?!"
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"Goodness, God... So fast!!!"
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"Wow!!!"

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Yeah, yeah.... And the world's gonna end soon!!!! (-_-)'

Leave....

2008-06-07T23:43:00.001+08:00

One more month to my three months leave...

Seems like last year I just had my three months leave...

Wait a minute... It was last year................

Pending Projects

2008-05-23T00:10:00.003+08:00

Been MIA for so long. Too long in fact. Not only busy with work, hubby, the little one and preparing for the latest addition, I've been recuperating at home. Resting, doing nothing but laying in bed and surfing.

Was discharged from KKH last week Thursday, due to an extreme tummy pain I experienced the previous night. At first, I thought it was just a normal tummy ache although it felt different to me. Having no experience of how braxton hicks or contraction felt like, I just dismiss it and just enduring the pain for solid 3 hours. The pain comes and gones lasting only for a few minutes but eversince the pain became more frequent, I can't endure it no more, I surrender myself to KKH Delivery Suite where they put me under CTG scan and an overnight observation. And, this is the best part, a week HL... That means a week of no work, and also, no jalan-jalan.... Boohooo... But that was last week. I'm back to work now...

Bummer.....

Suddenly, there seems to be alot of stuffs to be done.

To start searching for Sesame Street, preferably Baby Elmo, balloons and partyware for Azri's 1st Birthday.... Arrrggghhh.. How can I miss this one time THE most important event.
To order Baby Elmo 1st Birthday Cake from Polar Puff.
To call up Gymboree and enquiry about their playgym.
To compile songs to be played during my bro's wedding. That guy so the sengket doesn't want to engage a DJ..... And he said, he's berjimat.... Yeah right...
To throw away all those worn out, ugly, brooches and start collecting new ones.. Since I've no time and mood to go down to Geylang, what better way to shop than online shopping.
To start on my firstborn's scrapbooking, again. Hissh, this is one never-ending project.
To double confirm with my makcik urut, again. That lady is super duper busy that she tends to get dates mixed up.
To start packing my bag in time for my delivery. Having experience this before, no need to be a kiasu mama to bring all those unnecessary. Pads, toiletries, etc are all provided. Better to bring my PSP.
To just relax and wait for the little fella to pop.

Hmmm... Think that's about it.

Once, after I burst, better to concentrate slimming down. Again....

Cravings

2008-04-10T22:25:00.005+08:00

I remembered when I was pregnant with my firstborn, I had a huge craving for durians. Hubby won't allow me to consume it but since I can't resist the temptation, I went ahead and bought a packed of durians, those which are already packed. Promised him that I'll ate only two, I went against my words and finished up the whole packet.

Man, did I really regret that as I can hardly sleep that very night. I was feeling extremely hot and was really uncomfortable. My tummy felt tight and the discomfort was unbearable. I was tossing and turning, whining to hubby. But somehow, I managed to fall asleep and thank god, nothing serious happened. And since then, hubby ban me from eating durian. Even now, with my second pregnancy, I craved for durians, again but was not allowed to have them, no matter how I promise that I'll stick to my words. Poor baby, gonna drool when he's born.

You see, there are belief that you'll have a big and fat baby by eating durians during your preganancy. and true enough, my baby did came out "huge". 3.55kg. We believed its because of that, my son was having difficulty turning, thus I have to undergo c-sect. Maybe. Who knows.

Another a must consume food for pregnant women is young coconut juice. But you can only consume it in the 3rd trimester of your pregnancy, as it may harm the baby because the juice it know to be "too cooling". The reason why to drink young coconut juice in the 3rd trimester of the pregnancy is that the baby will born with "fair complexion" and "very clean". No blood, no dirt, no poo, etc.

Well, I really can't say that it really work as I was strap down (I underwent c-sect, remember). Once my son was born, he was cleaned straightaway by the nurses. And it was my mum who went around to buy the young coconuts for me.

There are so many pantang during pregnancy. How true they are, I'm not very sure. But it doesn't hurt to listen to the advise given to you by the elders. Sometimes it helps, depends on individuals. As for me, I rather played safe as they went through pregnancy before. But most importantly, taking care of your health is the most important. Being pregnant doens't mean passport to all eating spree. I learnt that from my first pregnancy. Tiredness, bloatness, all of the discomfort. Cause I lack the exercise, and eat as and when I wish, although I'm excuse for it. And also, endless praying that both you and your unborn child are healthy and well and that you'll have a safe delivery.

I still crave for durians though... And chocolates and MacD's fries, Coffee Bean Ice Blended Chocolate and ...... (the list goes on and on..... Talking about self-control, tsk,tsk,tsk)

The BIG Update!

2008-04-04T18:00:00.002+08:00

As of now, there're four pregnant mums in my work place. And one of them is.....

Me...

Yes, the news is finally out. I'm pregnant. Again... I'm into my seventh months now. And yes, I was 5/6 months pregnant when we went for our 2 honeymoon trip to Langkawi. Yes, and two of us are about the same month and going to burst around the same date. Nice planning, huh....

Anyway, this time round, its different than the first pregnancy. My first pregnancy, I gained almost 20kg!! Can you imagine?! I really took advantage of the situation. Pregnant. Hunger. Eat. Every hour I was kinda stuffing my mouth. Non-stop. And poff, I became a telly-tubby.

But this time, it was hardly noticeable until I hit my seven months. When I told my sup about my pregnancy, when I was around 4/5 months pregnant, he hardly believe me, keep looking at my tummy. When the news finally spread, people came asking how many months. They can't believe it that I was 6 months pregnant.

They even speculate this time, its gonna be a girl since I have a small baby bump. Ah, ah. Wrong. Its another boy. And this time I only gained a total of 5 kg. No, I'm not starving. Just that, been busy with work and the lil guy, and furthermore, been losing apptite. But still, baby is growing healthy. Growing and kicking. But the only thing differ is, my skin now dries and peels and my face is now itching. Hormones going haywire.

How the lil guy taking it? Becoming a big bro soon. Well, lets just say I think he can sense it. The arrival of a brother. And he's becoming naughtier and naughtier. And maybe the baby bump is making him uncomfortable, he always wants his dad to carry him... Tsk tsk tsk.. And if you read my previous post, how he likes to bump into people and smacking, imagine what he'll do to his brother. Sigh, just hope that he behaves and loves the brother, unconditionally.. By then, he'll be around 14/15 months.

And on a side note, luckly, my EDD for the second boy is somewhere around July. Or else, hubby will be surrounded with Gemini.

Latest Development

2008-03-28T14:13:00.000+08:00

My son prefer saying "mamam" than mama. Everytime he sees me, he'll go "mamam", "mamam".

Do I look like food to you?

And whoever he saw eating, he'll go to that person and go "mamam, mamam" and held out his right hand and do the snaping motion, asking for some of the food, too.

And a few months back, he loved to kiss us. Bring him close to one of our cheecks and he'll go "mmmuuuuuhh.....". Now, do the same and he'll give a smack on that cheeck..
He loves going around and "mopping" the house, go under the table and bang into things or anyone in his walker.

That's my son, at his 10 month.

Langkawi Vacation

2008-03-24T23:13:00.009+08:00

Finally, we went to Langkawi for our second honeymoon. Although it was a short getaway, it was a good one. So, on the 14th March, we took Malaysian Airlines to Langkawi Island. Thank god, it was not raining during our stay there, although it was pouring cats and dogs in Singapore for a couple of days, that week.

Day 1:

Reached Langkawi International Airport around 5.30 pm. A 1 1/2 hour flight and our transport then drove us to our resort, Berjaya Langkawi Beach and Spa resort. The view from our resort from so beautiful. I never felt so at ease and at peace.

After settling down ( I manage to soak myself in the bath tub for a good 1 hr :p ), we decided to had our dinner at the resort's restaurant. Menu, was Malaysian Style Buffet, for RM 68 ++.

As it was already dark, there seems no point to wonder around the beach, though the weather was quite cool and windy, we decided to head back to our room and end the night, after wondering around the main lobby and listening to a live band.

Day 2:

We started the day very early. We were among the few at the resort's cafe for breakfast. Before meeting up with our guide, we decided to walk around the clean beach and mesmerise ourselves with the beautiful scenery.

Our first stop was the Langkawi Cable Car. We didn't get to ride the cable car due to my current condition but we can foresee the view is gonna be magnificant. It's the highest cable car is Asia (according to our guide, with a view overlooking the Andaman Sea).

We then continue our journey to the underwater world. But sad to say, its nothing special. Comparatively, I would say, our Sentosa Underwater World is better. :(

Nearing evening, we made our way to Kuah Town, known to be a shopping haven. I wished I could agree with it.

After shopping around for stuffs, we made a quick stop at Dataran Lang or the Eagle Square, which main attraction is the magnificent statue of the reddish brown eagle, majestically poised for flight.

After dinner, we then head back to our resort, to pack our bags for our return trip home.

Day 3

Our last day, though, we didn't get the chance to visit most of the attractions, we certainly didn't regret our trip here, although our choice of resort burnt quite a big hole in our pocket. But it was the view that really worth the price. Our resort overlooking the sea. We are definitely coming again to Langkawi. Maybe when the kids grow up.

International Women's Day

2008-03-11T00:11:00.003+08:00

Last Saturday was International Women's Day. It was also the day I meet up with two of my closest colleagues. And a conincidence too that we meet up on this day. And most suprisingly was it was our husbands that remind us what day it was. Indeed a Women's Day. Women's day out.

We meet at 11 am at Bugis and went to had brunch along Bussaroh Street and came across Amirah's Grill. Lunch there was quite worth it 'cos the set lunch was only $9.90. Although there were only like, 5-6 variety, but the taste was, finger licking good. We sat there for hours, chatting, laughing and going for a few rounds. The ambience was nice with arabic music & decor. Make me feel I'm in egypt.

Around noon, we then went to Wayan Retreat for our massage session. I've been really looking forward to this. Gosh, the last time I had a massage was like 9 months ago when I was still in confinement. The embience, the music, the scent, the massage, enough to me go to lala land. Although it's only a 60 mins massage, the after effect was shiok. Felt so light-headed and I walked as if I'm floating.

And as usual, places like this, they'll pester you to sign up with them. But somehow, they make it sound its worth your dollar. And me & another colleague of mine, got hooked into it. Two more sessions with them, with a price of 1. And another package of 2 hrs session of massage and facial at only $100!!! So at the end of the day, I'm close to $200 poorer. All for the sake of pampering.

No doubt my aunt, who is my masseur during confinement, is way cheaper, but I'm paying for the embience and 60 mins of nap. 60 mins of peace and quiet. Without the chattering of the masseur.

Ok, ok. Enough of the massage session. Now, let me tell you about a wedding dinner me, hubby and the in-laws went to on that same day. Imagine having to rush home after the session to iron the clothes and all.

Anyway, it was his side and the wedding was held at Cheverons (spelling not sure lah). It was THE most boring wedding dinner I went to. I really, really didn't enjoy myself there. And neither was Azri. He was whining and crying. And the part that really pissed me off was, he was passed around like some damn parcel! What, these people like held a baby before!!!

We had to wait for the bride and the groom was 1.5 hrs!!! Already my tummy was playing growling. If the waiting time is around an hour, I find it still okay but for 1.5 hrs! Wahley, I find it rude ley.... And get this, the weirdest thing was, its a buffet style. Hey, I've been to hotels, restaurants weddings. And even a wedding held at that very same venue, that very same ballroom and I find buffet style, way-way not suitable.

First, the ballroom is already so small. The Q was super, snaky, long. The mc said ladies first then the gents. But somehow I saw some gender-confused gents Q-ing for the food too. And when it comes to my turn, the rice, nyelek, kaput, finish liao. Really swey ley.

First have to wait for so long, then my son got cranky, then he got passed around, now I end up just eating noodles and the side dish... And its not only me complaining about the food, many others too.

Hey mister, you wanna do malay style, do it properly lah... Buat bawa blok... Nak buat stylo-mylo, do it properly also lah, order enough food for the guest. Orang dah lah lapo tunggu kao berjam2, semua makan macam kambing, main pelahap!!!

Indeed a Women's Day! Turn out to be Azlin's Cranky Day! Half a day of pleasure, the remaining day of misery!!!

Month of Outings

2008-03-01T22:29:00.005+08:00

Wow.. Been missing for so long now and many things had happen and worth the entry, 'cos my internal memory is not what it used to be. Hahaha.. Can't be that bad, mah.... Anyway, its already the 1st of March, so let's recap last month event.

Super Long Weekend: CNY

Was wasted. Stayed at home the first two days because hubby had to work to cover his colleagues who're celebrating and mostly there's nowhere to go. Shopping center closed and places like East Coast or Sentosa will be jam packed. But we did go out on the third day. His first trip to Changi Airport and our first to T3. (Like a bit kolot, open for so long, now got chance to go!)

The week after, we went to the zoo. Thanks to the company where hubby's working, we got free tickets to the zoo. YEAH!!!

Off to the Zoo

We stopped-by where Ah Meng is buried. Not only to enjoy the scenery around there but to give Azri his lunch. Doesn't sound to respectful but one has to feel his empty tummy. Overall trip, we had fun. So was Azri, we hoped. Well, he did made all those noises and sounds when he's interested in something.

And few days later, he had a fever. We suspect it was due to the hot, sunny weather. Its not that we don't want him to wear his cap, its he that kept pulling it off. And due to his prolonged fever, rashes started poppin up all over his face and body. Bummer, a day's trip to the zoo cost him a fever and a trip to his pade cost us more than the zoo's entrance. Was lucky the day's trip was FOC!

Bumbo Seat

2008-02-07T23:50:00.000+08:00

Been wanting to buy this for Azri to train him to sit upright. But due to its very expensive price, get this, it cost close to $80 for a small seat that looks like potty, we decided not to. But now, I think I really need to buy it. The thing is, hubby already bought him a walker. A month or two ago. Funny, we're training him to walk/stand before he can even sit upright by himself....

I just hope its not too late to get him a bumbo seat. The thing is he gets bored easily just laying around. He likes to roll around but the playmat is just so limited. Won't want him to roll around the house and bump his head! And when put into his walker, he gets bored easily too. The only thing he never gets bored of is by carrying him. Gosh, no way am I gonna carry him around the clock, though I know my mum-in-law won't mind. She can even tawaf the whole house carrying him.

And I've been surfing and bump into this site, stating how dangerous it is if the baby is leave alone. And if the baby gets bored easily, which in my case, he is, or got out of it themselves fast enough, then it'll be useless. $80 down the drain. Of cos, some might say, use it for the second one but what if the second one won't like it either, then what?! Passed it others? What? Just like that?? FOC, without even my kids using it? Blah.... I will for a price of course (being money minded here, hahhaha)...

2008-02-01T23:33:00.000+08:00

Gave hubby an advance dinner treat at Swensen and looked who's so keen in ordering.

One fish and chips, please.

He was so excited when we entered the restaurant. Looking here and there. Everywhere. Looking at everyone who passed by. Probably because it was the first time he's been to Swensen. Shared with him our banana split ice-cream. Only the banana, not the ice-cream. Won't want his cough to return. Shared with him my spagetti too. I have to mashed it for him and he's loving it. As a matter of fact, he's loving anything that was put into his mouth.

And since his Papa is a Man Utd fan, we bought him something related from Man Utd Store online. He's been wanting to buy Azri a jersey and has been looking all over S'pore.... Okay, not all over, only at Peninsula and this shop, I keep forgetting the name only sell Arsenal rompers.

So we decided to purchase it online. Can't be found in Singapore and when Azri can't fit into it anymore and if the condition is still good, I might sell it to whoever is interested. Ok, ok, enough with the suspence.. We bought him Man Unt rompers.

Red Devil Bear included

Quite expensive, though. In pound currency plus shipment but since it can't be found in here, well, my boy should be lucky that he's wearing it, exclusively.

Azri started talking to, just baby talks and I thought I heard him say Dada which is quite close to Papa.. How could this be... How could he be calling his dad first and not me..... Or maybe he didn't mean it... Hehehe

Milk Intake

2008-01-21T14:28:00.000+08:00

Everytime he refused his milk, she'll say change the milk. Not once, not twice but million of times. Come'on mum, doesn't mean he refused his milk doesn't mean he hates it and need to change it.

This happened before when he was just 3 months old. But was okay once he turned four and still I stick to the same brand. And before I change into this recent follow-up milk, he accepted the change well. No eik, no uik. Only recently when he felt ill that he refused his milk. Its understandable. When you're ill, you have no appetite for food or drink.

Sure his milk intake dropped but he did drink it. And no, I don't think he just drank it out of hunger or thirst. Sigh, it's really frustrating when you're own mum sounded as if she knows your son better than you. Sure our mums had taken care of us before when we wrere babies but that was like decades ago. Things have changed. Babies nowadays are not even the same as when we were babies!!

Imagine how many types of different brands of milk he had tasted just because he refused to drink. Gosh mum, give me a break. You said this about a million times! He's just got well and he'll be turning into a new month soon, of course he's attitude or behaviour changed.

I just blew it when my mum said the same thing again. I really appreciate that she's willing to care for my son. Golly, all working mums I'm sure appreciate the help. I even close one eye if I don't quite approve how she care for my son but as long he's not hurt, I just close one eye. But please just stop telling me to change his milk just because he refused it. He's simply doesn't want to drink.

Sigh, how I just wish I could be a full-time stay at home mum....

Fever, cough and running nose

2008-01-20T00:22:00.000+08:00

What a hectic week it has been. Two weeks of sleepless nights and endless worrying. The thing that we feared most finally did happened. Azri had a high fever. Most of my friends and collegues whose child, after each jab, will succumb to fever but Azri, alhamdullilah, never once felt ill or feeling feverish until two weeks ago when hubby called me at work saying the Azri's temperature is 37.8°. And so I rushed straight home to pick up both the men and then rushed to KKH. The wait was not long and everything went kinda smooth. But one question remained in our heads. How can a doctor diagnosed our son is infected with viral fever when no blood test was done?

Sunday night Azri woke us up with his non-stop coughing. He was coughing so bad that he even cried. And from the his cries, we know that he's uncomfortable and suffering. And when morning came, his temperature was already 39°! Again we rushed him to KKH. Since it was our second visit, the doctor ordered a blood test and x-ray to be done on Azri. During the wait, Azri was a bit cranky. Always wanting to be carried. Wanting to be entertained. Well, if I had to wait for hours and having a very high fever I would be, too.

Thankfully it was nothing but a bacteria infection. It seems from viral infection, it transform into a bacterial infection. Its been 5 days now and Azri has recovered from his fever except for his cough. He still cough a lot, though and is still on medication. Poor baby, now has a hoarse voice. Rock beb!!!

2007 Round Up

2008-01-02T22:24:00.000+08:00

2007 has been an amazing year yet! As you'll remember, we became parents last year to a baby boy. The whole nine months passed by lightning fast. Those who had experience it before will know what I mean. A whole nine months of being an oversized "teletubby" and now our son has turned 7 months. So fast. Once he was just a 3.55 kg boy who cried and wailed loudly for milk and now still wailling but for attention. He's our most precious jewel in our lives, who never failed to give us a bright, lovely smile upon seeing us.

And my mum and brother will be coming home next week, insya allah. I can't wait. I really missed them lots. And also means we won't be needing to go to and fro to feed the cats and clean the house. And also means we'll be going for our long awaited, overdue trip to Langkawi, insya allah. But we'll be making this trip a short one. More like a weekend getaway. Can't bear to leave the little one for more than a week.

On a side note, our new year beginning doesn't start up well. We countdowned in our sleep only to be awaken by some "sumbang" guys, singing damn loud at our void deck. I was on the verge of calling the police. Unable to tolerate it any longer, hubby went to the windows and shout as long as he could. Well, that went well. Not only he shuted up those "sumbang" singers but also woke up our son.

Anyway, my new year resolutions? Heck, why keep coming up with new ones when you can't even achieve the past years. But I'm trying to be a better muslimah, a good wife, mother and daughter. And I can also come up with resolutions for others too. People in general.Perhaps their resolutions should be:

To wake up and leave for work early so that they don't push people who is in their way. Even so, a nice, polite excuse me can do the trick. Anyway, rushing won't help. When you are late, you ARE late.
To leave early from work so that they don't push people who is in their way.
Not to rush towards an empty seat also not to push people who is in their way.
To give up their seat to those who need in more. For example, the elderly, those poor sleepy toddlers whose parents woke them up from their sleep to take them to the childcare or babysitter's place. And the pregnant especially those whose tummy looks like its going to burst anytime.

Happy New Year to one and all. May 2008 be a memorable year.

I Miss You... Mum....

2007-12-18T14:18:00.000+08:00

Been taking care of Rizal. He's down with fever, again, for almost two weeks now. Took him to the SGH for a blood test and found out that his white blood cells counts has gone up, which means there's some war going on against some virus in his body. Not only him, I'm down with a mild fever too. Flu and cough. Was okay the week before but since I'm taking care of two boys at home, my sickness came back again. The little fellow has been naughty too. In another words, its good. He's active. Lately, ever since we started spoon-feeding him cereal, he's milk intake is reducing. He simply refused to finish his milk. He'll just drink a little, maybe just to quench his thirst and that's it, he'll push or hit the milk bottle. He even started to sleep late now. Past his usual bedtime which is 9.30 pm. He'll toss and turn. Roll around and make noise for attention. I'll just put him inside his playpen, darken the room and leave him be. He'll play by himself and finally will fall asleep himself.

Its been really really tiring. With the raining season now. The sick daddy at home. The sick mummy still have to go to work. Sigh... How I wish I could take a break somewhere far all by myself. Easier said than done. Once, I left my son at my mum's place 'cos I'm not feeling too well to take of him and in the end I can't sleep 'cos of thinking of him. Already missing him.. hehehehe...

My mum and bro left for Mekkah last Saturday to perform their pilgrimage. They'll be gone for almost one month. Its the first time I won't be seeing them for the longest time ever. The longest before this was when I went to Australia for my honeymoon but that was only for a week. I worry about their safety of course since almost every year there was bound to have something sad (death, disaster) happenning there. But by God's will, I pray they'll be safety. Furthermore, the Saudi government are taking extra precautions for the safety of the pilgrims.

While they're away, I'm in-charge for my mum's house. Everyday, before leaving for work, I have to stop by at her house to feed the cats and again in the evening after work. And its not an easy job. There's also laundry to be done over the weekends. I'm not complaining though. I felt its my responsibility and thankfully Rizal understands. Its tough. Getting up early in the morning so as not to be late for work. And coming home to find my son already asleep. And he is still sleeping when I left for work. Which means, he didn't see me for almost 24 hours. How sad can that be..... The sacrifices I have to made to carry out my responsibilities. I just hope Azri understand.

Miss my mum the most. Everyday, during lunch time I'll call up to chat with her for awhile. Now, I've no one to cal up and chat. And my mother-in-law is not the answer, though. And they've been gone for only four days. Just hope that they're well, safe and may God give them health and strength to perform their idabah well. Amin.....

Updates

2007-12-02T22:00:00.000+08:00

Wow, its been so long since my last entry. I've been very very busy lately. Not only with work and with the two guys but also busy facebooking. Hahaha, yeah, I'm hook to Facebook so check me out. That is, if you know my name, which is kinda obvious. DUH!

So what's new? Hmm... Well, hubby and I turned 2 years last Monday. Went for a pre-celebration on Friday, the previous week. Dinner. Then bowling and late night movie. Something we haven't do for a very long time. Then on the day itself, dinner at the Carousel. Not a ideal place for a romantic candlelight dinner but something new for both of us. And we a place we won't be coming back for sometime.

So what's new with the little guy? He just turned six months last Thursday. He naughtier. Likes to grab things and refusing to let go. Bang tables! Throw things and scream. He's a tarzan at home and yet my neighbour said he's so "qui qui" (goody goody). Yeah right!!! Oh yah, I even started feeding with from a bowl with a spoon. Finally. Just as of today. Man! What a messy sight! First, he won't sit still. He likes to lean forward. And also likes to do "bluh bluh" with his saliva and split his food out again. Looks like the food is more on his clothes, around his mouth rather than IN his mouth. But first attempt is always messy, right.

Oh by the way, can anyone tell me which authority to go to, to complaint against a doctor? Accompanied hubby last night to a clinic. Poor guy, down with a fever. Again! And this malay doctor (as I'm typing this, I'm feeling ashamed already) was very, exceptional rude. Okay, maybe I exaggerated a little since I'm not in the room with him but anyway, this doctor was rude. When hubby request for two days MC, by the way I took his temp and it was 38.5 deg (!), and that he's working night shift. And the doctor got the nerve to say "So what?!"

What bloody hell kinda answer was that! Hello, his temp was 38.5 and he's working night shift, you mangkuk!!! And he only give paracetamol. I thought doctors usually give more than just paracetamol. Not even antibiotics.

When hubby collected his medicine from the counter, he told the the recep that the doctor was very rude and even she agreed and said that that doctor is anti-social. Anyway, whatever I typed was not the whole story. There were more to it but I rather tell it to the proper authority. I never know such doctor exist that! Rude and as if he don't value patients' health!

Oh that's not the only updates. I got another suprised this morning. But that's for another time. Another update..... :D

Updates

2007-10-19T13:49:00.000+08:00

Its been almost a week of Hari Raya but the tiredness still lingers. Didn't take a week leave this year. No more leave. Very limited.

Hmm... How should I blog about my Hari Raya outing. Well, its been fun. Since its the 1st time celebratig Hari Raya with the little fella. No more fanciful handbag. This year is a more fashionable bag. Can contain the whole "house"!

One thing for sure, we spent quite a long of money just on taxi fare. Seems impossible to travel by bus or train. With the heavy rain, the big bag and carrying the fella around. How I wish at times like this we own a car. Hmm.. Wonder if we can afford a car into our budget? Anyway, guess who gain a lot? Yes. The little guy. He got more than I used to get past years. Hahaha, yes, Azri can buy us a car. Hundreds of cars! Hundreds of toy cars! Hahahahah...

Before I proceed further, let me wish all Muslim readers Selamat Hari Raya. Maaf Zahir Batin. Better late than never.

Yes, I know. My son's hari look like a duck tail.

Azri and the dinosaur kinda look alike. The rounded face. The hair. Only difference is the dino has his pacifier in his mouth. This is his second clothes of the day.

Second day outing. Soo tired. These cousins look kinda alike.

And he slept throughout the whole day.

Even after we reached home.

Before I end my blog, I wonder, why does ladies, who originally didn't don the hijab, will only wear the hijab on the first day of Hari Raya? But not on the second day or any other day or not at all. I've seen a few personally but being me, I never like to mind other business. But if any of you out there care to explain, please do so. Enlighten me, please.

Online Shopping

2007-10-10T13:11:00.000+08:00

Bought this online. Nice or not? My first online shopping item. Not much of a hassle. The best part is the seller lives just next to my flat. Just meet up at the void deck. But the sleeves are a bit too big. That's the minus point of online shopping, especially if you're shopping for clothes or shoes. You have to estimate and hope that you can fit into the items you bought as they are not refunable or exchangeable items.

Anyway, yesterday was a very bad day for me so not wanting any yesterday's negativity to linger around me again and trying to be positive, I told myself that today, only good things will happen to me. And if you say it out and believe in it, it will happen. So I took a step further, I typed that in my MSN personal message and friends started messaging me asking me why the positive attitude? What happened? What make me typed those words? I was like, what's up with that? Can't I feel positive today? Boy, I'm surrounded with pessimist people.

Okay, back to my online shopping experience. Heck care what people think about my positive attitude. I stumbled upon the site while goggling for Muslimah wear. I have to think, like a million times, wheather or not I should buy. I seldom see such design being sold (might have lah since I'm the type of seldom go out lady since Azri's arrival). And finally, what the hell, for the thrill of it. If it doesn't fit me, I can always give it away to someone or better still sell it. Heehee
And I almost bought her Sophie Martin bags collection, when I saw a similiar design at Toa Payoh Hub and its only 10 bucks. Yah, yah, I'm so cheap and into piracy, so sue me!!! And that like saves me $20. Hahaha. I've no confident buying bags online because I must have the feel of the bag. I must see if the bag suits me. Hey, the model and me are two different person, k! Might suit the model by not me...

So anyway, the material is good. Its not those hugging type of material. I like the design. At first looking at it gives me headache but after awhile I kinda like it.

I found two local online shopping site for muslimah wear.

Busana Anggun & Zreen's Inc - haven't been updating their site for way, way too long.
Now my fingers are itchy to find more online shopping sites... Muslim wear, baby wear...

Bummer... My holes getting bigger and bigger, babe..

2007-10-06T11:15:00.000+08:00

My baby is now weaning! Yeah. He's growing up... He's four months old now and weights 7kg. Try carry a sack of rice, you'll know.

I wanted to feed him by spoon but since he can't hold his head upright so we feed with by bottle. But who said by giving him cereal he'll feel fuller. He cried for his next feed within two hours from his previous feed. Its the same as not giving him cereal.

Anyway, today was spring cleaning day for us but we concentrate on our room first. First task was to clear our wardrobe. Throw/give away unused, old clothes. Azri must be getting bored having to entertain himself that he kept whining, trying to grab our attention. The thing was, we can't keep entertaining him else we can never get our task done and the windows are yet to be wiped.

So to keep him happy for awhile, I took pictures of him. He likes taking pictures.

He sure different when he carried upright and when he's lying down.

Tomorrow there'll be another spring cleaning to be done.

Hari Raya Shopping

2007-10-01T12:43:00.000+08:00

Phew. How time flies and before you know it, another one more week to Hari Raya. And guess what I've done. Nothing. Well, not really nothing. I've brought down the curtain and washed them. Wiped the lights and ceiling fans and that's it. Looks like I won't be baking any goodies this year.

This year we'll be celebrating Hari Raya with the little fella. Must be a grand celebration with the new addition but somehow this year feels a bit dull. I don't even look forward to it. Hmmmm, wonder why?

Anyway, did a bit of shopping. Table cloths and our baju kurungs too. Yah, bought Azri baju kurung too. Its with mum right now for alteration.

We even took him out for shopping. No, not to Geylang. No way. With the crowd, noises and all. Just to the usual shopping center to buy himk some new nice rompers and shirts.
He's quite excited knowing that we gonna take him out shopping. Won't blame him when he grows up jadi kaki merayap. Tengok lah mama papa dia.

Knowing how bored he is we decided to bring him along.

And we're off.....

His new Hari Raya shoe. Wonder if it goes well with his baju kurung.

After a long day of shopping. We're the ones doing the pushing. Carrying him. Feeding him and all and he's the one feeling tired...

Updates

2007-09-09T00:08:00.000+08:00

Ok, where should I start???

First of all, I'm back to work. Already?! :(

Three months (12 weeks to be exact) passed by very fast. And without realising, some familiar faces in the offices were gone. Gone to a better place with a better pay. And of course there are new faces replacing them. And that means a new supervisor for me. Can you imagine, three different supervisor for my team within three years since I started working there. Wonder what does that tell you about my team? Or the company to be precise.

Anyway, moving on. The first week of work was quite hectic. Having a new supervisor means a whole new ideas. Could be good or bad, depending on how you interprete them. And shoots!!! I miscalculate my maternity leave. It happens that I actually came back nine days after my maternity leave!!! There goes my annual leave. Wasted for nothing! But was it actually my fault for miscalculating?! The admin knew when I gave birth! Sheesh!!!! And that means there goes my long leave for Hari Raya!!! Aaaarrrrggggghhhhh!!!! Talking about Hari Raya, soon it will be Ramadhan. I'm really looking forward towards that month. Man, time sure pass by fast. Last year was the first time ever that I manage to fast for the whole one month. And I hope I can do it again for this coming Ramadhan, Insya Allah

Going back to work also means missing out on lots of things. One of them is waking up late every morning. Hehehehe. I'll not wake up until Azri wakes up. And that means missing out on our morning convo too. I really like our morning convo, despite the fact that I don't know a single word (sound?) he's saying (making?). But at least we can still have our morning convo over the weekends which is not bad either.

Ok, remember my previous post? Where I have this urge of revamping my wardrobe with a totally new and different blouse? Well I stumbled upon this site and am still wondering if its worth buying from this site? Or should I just continue buying from Anglia? The price of the blouse from that particular site, after converting, plus the shipping price equals to more or less the price of a blouse from Anglia. Hmmmm.......

Why must nice stuffs cost so much?!

Something to ponder

2007-08-13T11:45:00.000+08:00

My mum and aunts have been telling me to just give the baby a little cereal to get him to sleep better. As we all know, he's just 2 months 3 weeks old.

But if you ask what is recommended for an adult who can't sleep. Chances are, the advice given would be to drink a glass of warm milk.

Mixed Post

2007-08-12T16:48:00.000+08:00

Been some time since my last post. Many things had happened.

1. Had Azri circumcised. Some might opposed circumcising a baby at such a very young age. But believe me, its much easier to take care of and it heal faster. The first night was really tramautising. He cried his lungs out everytime he pee. There's nothing much can be done but to soothe him and cry along with him. But the next day, he is himself again. Chatting away, bubbling away in his own language. And smiling again.

2. A week later, held his cukur rambut. It was the first time inviting all the relatives over to our house. It was kinda, wow. So many people. And I shed tears when my grand-uncle and grandpa cut some strand of his hair. Dunno know why. Maybe just felt so touch and grateful to HIM of this gift.

3. My cat Gemuk passed away two weeks ago. Discoreved he was sick when Mum noticed he haven't been eating well lately. And few days later his face became swollen and can't seems to control his bowels. He passed away at his favourite spot. The front door of my mum's house. May he rest in peace in cat heaven.

Another two more weeks and I'm back to work. Lately, I have this urge to change my wardrobe. I've just bought a new pant and two new blouse. I've been wanting to do some online shopping 'cos the blouses I've seen sold at shops just doesn't look great to me. And there ain't many online sites that sells Muslimah blouses or that suits a Muslimah. Most online sites sell those latest fashion from Korea, Hongkong and mostly are baby doll dress. I've been wearing that for 9 months and I'm just sick of it.... Or maybe my expection is just high!!!

Time flies

2007-07-24T13:56:00.000+08:00

Time pass by very fast and soon, my Azri will be two months old. And if you have seen my son (either by pict or personally), my soon two month old son looks like a three month old baby. But heck, size doesn't matter to me. What's important that he's growing and healthy. Though it really bugs me when those nurses who took his weight and height commented "what a big baby he is". Big?! I give you big, sista!!! One big punch!!!!

Anyway, Azri can now smile now. But yet to response to our smile. He'll smile either on his own, especial when he is sleeping. Talking about sleep, he sleep less during the day and I use these times to support his sensory development. Playing and singing. But then, he gets bored and sleepy after about 10-15 minutes of bonding with him. But the thing is, he has trouble sleeping. He wants to be carried and cuddle him to sleep, else, he'll just cry his lungs out. And who says that you can catch some sleep while the baby is sleeping. He wakes up every few minutes!

Nonetheless, motherhood is a totally a new great experience to me. Besides saying goodbye to a good night sleep and freedom and saying hello to the increasing expenditure, I got to learn new things. And one of them is become more patience. I was once a hot tempered person. Easily agitated and restless especially is things gets in the way of what I'm currently doing. But eversince the arrival of Azri, I'm more patince. I mean, you just can't get angry or temper towards a baby. What do they know and crying is their only means of communicating.

Well, he'll pass this phase soon. And once he starts to crawl, walk and run and talk, started schooling, well, that is another experience to blog about.

Tapi walau apa pun, hanya satu yang diingini oleh semua ibu dan ayah, si anak membesar menjadi anak yang soleh, beriman dan bertaqwa. Anak yang akan mendoakan ibu dan bapa dan keluarganya.

Meantime, these are some photos of Azri.

One Month Old

2007-06-29T16:56:00.000+08:00

Azri is one month old today. Time passes by very fast. Its as though I just brought him home yesterday.

Nothing much has change just that he put on more weight andhis milk intake increases too. He slept alot when we brought him home one month ago but now he sleeps less during the night. I don't quite mind though just as long he sleeps soundly at night.

But he's getting quite cheeky day by day. He doesn't like to be put down after feed. He'll cry his lungs out as if something is wrong and when we pick him up to cuddle him he'll give his sort of a smile look.

Updates

2007-06-22T21:11:00.000+08:00

Azri is now 3 weeks old. How time pass and soon it will be July. Then it will be August and I have to go back to work around end August. Sounds fast. Sometimes I wish time pass by very fast so that I can go back to work because I'm getting bored doing nothing at home. Nothing but taking care of Azri. And sometimes I wish time pass by slowly because I'm kinda getting use to waking up late in the mornings (thanks to the frequent getting up in the middle of the night, every 2/3 hours).

And lately, I've been going against the law. No, not Singapore law. The law of confinement. I'm not allow to leave the house during the 44 days of confinement and my mum kinda wash her hands nagging me about it. Hehehe, I've been known to be very hard-headed. Hehehe.

First, I've accompanied hubby to the clinic 'cos he's down with fever. After so much whining. Think Azri learnt to whine from me. Sigh.....

I actually suposed to spent my confinement period at my mum's place but she have to go back kampung 'cos grandma is sick so I spent my confinement to and fro between my place and her's. Why not just spent at my own house, you asked? Let's just say I'm used with my own mum. Ladies, you'll understand.

The other law I've broken is that I keep avoiding taking the jamu. Not that it will affect my breast milk but I just hate the taste of it. And another thing I've been sipping cold drinks behind my mum's back. A sip here. A sip there. Hehehehe. Guess I'll face the consequences once I reach old age then.

Oh yah, we went to ICA building last Monday. Not a good experience. Though I've been wanting to take Azri out, at least when he reached 4 months. The lady at the photo taking booth, make my handsome son into a not handsome baby.

He was sleeping when we left the house till we reached ICA. Then we were told that Azri have to open up his eyes in order to take his picture. What the heck! Luckly after the shoot, he felt back to sleep and not bring the building down with his cries.

Finally

2007-06-10T00:23:00.001+08:00

Finally able to steal sometime to update my blog. Azri is fast asleep with his Nyai (grandma) after his feed and now, I'm surfing away checking e-mails and updates.

First of all, thanks to my friends for the well wishes. Either thru here, smses or personally.

My life change alot eversince the arrival of the little one. No more peaceful sleep at night. I'll be awake by the lil' one's call, either to be fed or diaper change. Though I know I can depend on hubby or my mum for help, somehow I felt its my responsibility to attend to him. Looks like maternal instinct already kicked it.

It's been only a week since I've discharged from the hospital but already I'm feeling bored. I'm not allowed to go out during this confiment period for 40 days!!! Can you imagine?! But I sure do enjoy the massage. But seriously, the wraps are killing me but for the sake for slimming down, I just have to endure the itch and walk like a stick!

Another sad part is I've to stop breast feeding Azri for awhile because his jaundice level seems to be increasing and hubby and mum blamed it on the black fish essence because it contain ginseng. The doctor suspect that could be the culprit. But mum doesn't want me to stop taking the essence 'cos its good for health and it can help in the healing process of my wound. So hubby suggest that I keep pumping and just discard the contents. Easy for him to say!

So anyway, I think I can't wait for my Azri to grow a bit bigger so that we can take him out. Staying at home, with nothing else to do but sleep and also doing small light houseworks are boring me. Though sleep is good but how do you expect to enjoy sleep if you're all wrap up like lepat and the lil' one cries every three hours...

Anyway, here's Prince Azri is his majesty is not serve immediately.

Announcing the Arrival of.....

2007-06-07T14:07:00.000+08:00

Announcing the arrival of our latest addition.

Mohammad Azri Rahmat bin Mohammad Rizal

Born on the 29th May '07, 1207 at KKH Women's & Children's Hospital.

Weighing 3.55 kg and 48 cm tall with head circumference of 38 cm.

My Final Update (?)

2007-05-18T09:20:00.000+08:00

16 May 2007

Took half day off today for our fetal weight scan appointment at KKH. When to Novena Station alone but will be meeting hubby at KKH as he's from Jurong HQ doing his reservist.

2.30 pm

At the ADC center inside the scan room, baby's estimated weight is 3.2 kg. Really heavy for a 35 weeks old baby. Gonna be a very chubby fellow. And still breech.

3.30 pm

Almost an hour of waiting for our gynae to be back from delivery. Everything check-out fine. Heart beat, the position of the placenta, everything's fine. Alhamdullilah. But main concern was the position of our baby. Should have turn down head first by now. Instead of risking and waiting the baby to turn in time for my EDD, gynae advised that I undo-go c-sect as soon as I reach full term.

Was so shocked and speechless as I never expect to be cut open. I always wanted to go through normal delivery. To feel what our mothers felt when birthing us. By hubby consulted, no matter what way he was birthed, the most important things are we both are going to be okay and healthy. And so its been decided.

On the 28 May, I'll be going for my blood test and I'll be going under the knives on the 29 May.

Mother's Day & Swollen ankles

2007-05-09T00:33:00.000+08:00

Wow, its been a long time since my last update. Nah, I'm still here. Heavy, swollen and stuff....

Before I start, I would like to wish all mums and would-be-mums a Happy Mothers Day. I hope you got a day off from housework and be pampered like a queen by your children and husband.

And as for me, well, I still got to do some housework. Just those minor parts like doing the laundry, and hubby hangs them up. Hubby vacuum the house and I just do the mopping. Hey I still need to do some excercising too.

Anyway, mum's not in Singapore today to celebrate Mother's Day. Some wedding in JB to attend too. But last two weeks I gave her an advance Mother's Day gift by bringing her to attend Mother's Day High Tea organised by Berita Harian. Here's mum & one of the celebrity, Imran Ajmain.

As for my mum-in-law, since the in-laws came back from Umrah yesterday, me, hubby & sis-in law decided to celebrate Mother's Day a day earlier with all the mums (aunts & cousins). We bought a big cake and small boxes of chocolates for all. As for me & sis-in-law, well, we just bought ourselves a small cake and celebrate just between the two of us. Pathetic but then...

Anyway, today, hubby decided to rearrange our room and set up the baby's playpen. Finally. Still 90% complete 'cos we're yet to buy the mattress and other bedding stuffs.

As for my lil' one latest updatees, he'll be turning 35 weeks next Tuesday and he'll be having his fetal weight scan next Wednesday. The last time we went for check-up, his estimated weight was 2.65 kg! Gosh, too big for a 34 weeks baby, according to my gynae. So, must be of his weight that I'm having a very painful pelvic pain. Sigh, I feel like a beach whale, struggling for breathe after a few distance walk, with swollen ankles.

Little baby, mummy have to confess. I really can't wait for you to pop out. 'cos I just can't take it anymore. I look like Tellytubbies (according to your dad). How sad.....

How to gain extra moolah from hubby?

2007-04-25T13:34:00.000+08:00

Was late this morning. Very very late. So hard to wake up on time nowadays. Kekadang sampai terlajak solat Subur. Astagfirullah.....

Anyways, got ready around 7.40 am. I should have left for work at 7.30 am! Looks like I would end up taking a cab from Toa Payoh HDB Hub. Hmm, to go to the bank is a bit troublesome especially when I'm already late.. Hmm, hubby's still here. He's on off day today. Hmm...

"Alamak, yang! I'm late! Looks like I have to take a cab to work. But I need to go to the ATM first and I'm already late! Arrgghh!!!!"

And voila, $20 appears in front of my face. Hehehe, knew this would worked.... And guess what?! I don't need to take a cab after all. Everything just fell perfectly. The bus arrived as soon as I reached the stop. The train arrived soon after I reached the platform. And the bus was just leaving with I reached the interchange... And I arrived work just in time.. As a matter of fact, before 9 am, even.

Haha, looks like I don't need the $20 after all... But does that mean I have to return it to hubby?

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Random Thoughts

2007-04-23T13:25:00.000+08:00

My baby's favourite game. Constant tug of war, playing kick and boxing and sommersaulting.

Mothers of more than 1 children who are still able to maintain their beautiful slim figure through constant exercising and proper dieting (no pills, no operations & no slimming center involve). YOU ARE MY INSPIRATIONS!

People have new year resolution. I have end of year resolution. To lost as much weight as possible after birth, in time for this year Hari Raya, Insya allah. I'm determine to wear back the kebaya Hubby gave me as the hantaran.

Why is it preggy mums just can't wait to give birth even though they still have a long way to go? Mine is nearing. Getting heavier but even I don't wish for him to pop up soon or any earlier. He can take his time as and when he's ready. I'm fine with it. Enjoy the pregnancy, women!

Read from a website that constant rubbing of your tummy can stimulate labour, besides rubbing your own nipples or having sex. Do it any earlier, you might end up with premature labour.

Kalau isteri tak layan suami, si isteri berdosa. kalau si suami tak layan si isteri, berdosakah si suami itu?

Into our 28 weeks

2007-03-30T22:50:00.000+08:00

What a hectic week it has been. Took a day off from work and you came back with tons of deadline and changes to be done, pronto!

Anyway, went for my diabetes test last Tuesday. It was the most horrible test I ever took. Oh the blood test thingy was not a problem to me though I hate needles being poked inside me. Its the glucose test. After the 1st blood test, I was given a big cup of glucose drink. From the smell of it I could sense it was gonna be sweet. But smelling it and tasting it was two different thing. I just drank it as I would for any other drink. And I cough uncontrollably and almost felt like vomitting. I was the most sweetest drink ever! I had to take small sip every time and it took me almost an hour to finish it up. And the nurse told me I should have finish the drink in 10-15 mintues. She crazy or what!? This drink was like the mother of all sweetness!!!

And I wasn't the only one taking the test. There were like a few others. But I was the only one taking it take long to drink. I notice the other preggies just drank it like water. So fast. Its either they can take the sweetness or they just gulp it down and get it over with. Well, I tried. Its not that I didn't but I just can't. I almost cried tryinhg to finish it. Yah, what a worsty...

But that's not all. I thought my torture will be over after I drank all the "poison" but noooo. I had to continue fasting for 2 hours!!! I was like what the hell! Hello!!!! Starving mummy is an angry mummy!!! And this is a hospital, not a mall where I can walk around trying to kill time. I even suggest to hubby that we try to take a look at their wards. Trying to get an idea how they looked like since we never been to the wards for visiting. But he thinks it was a stupid idea. So we're stuck in the clinic. Luckly the sofas inside Private Suite are comfortable that I even dozed off.

12 pm. 2 hours up! Straight I go to the treatment room for my second blood test. I was told that the purpose of me drinking the glucose solution and having the 2nd blood test after 2 hours of fasting was to see if my blood able to secrete out the excessive sugar and that my both blood test should come out within the normal range. If the second one comes out high, then it means I'm diabetic.

Anyway, off we go for lunch because I'm already shivering of hunger. And we fast forward to the next day. Wednesday.

My check-up with the gynae. And my, what full of suprises this week have in store for me. I just can't believe when I saw how much weight I've gained. I'm not gonna write it down here 'cos I get depressed just thinking about it. I just can't believe it! I refused to believe! Do I look like I've gained that much weight! Even my colleagues told me I don't look big vertically and I don't even look pregnant from the back (unless of course they're trying to be nice!). So how can I gained that much weight! I admit I've been eating alot but I'm always hungry. And the little hickhiker is not gaining much weight either. He's only 1.5 kg.

Looks like I'm the one gaining more weight than him. Looks like I can forget about being able to wear back my old clothes, especially my favourite skirts. Might as well I burnt them away!

Nose Job

2007-03-22T22:03:00.000+08:00

My bedtime supper. Fruit salad. Hunger strikes every 2-3 hours nowadays. And I've been having ice-cream quite too often. Time to watch the diet, especially when I'll be going for my diebetic blood test next week!

Anyway, Hubby on afternoon shift today. He shoud be home in two hours time. And I should be in bed by now but eversince marriage, I just can't sleep at night without him by my side. Whenever he's doing his night shift, I'll force him keep me company till I fall asleep before he leaves for work. Anyway, I'm not here to share with you my bedtime stories.

I'm here to talk about my nose.

This is me before marriage. Before preggy. Two of my friends told me that my nose has gone big! Enlarge! Kembang! Just because I'm carrying a boy! I was like huh?! Same what?! Already my legs and hands are swollen, I don't need people to tell me that even my nose has gone swollen. I know they meant well, people, even they themselves said that their nose kembung too when carrying their boys. Just that it depends, wheather it'll shrink back to the normal size or not after birth. Great!!!

And this is me when I'm 5-6 months pregnant. Notice any difference? Okay, beside the chubby cheeks and all. Just see the nose. Any difference? No, right?! Even I can't spot the size difference. As I'm typing this, I'm seeing myself in the mirror, even I can't see the difference.

And this colleague of mine. She carrying a boy too and we're like only a week or few days apart. Her nose looks the same to me.

Sigh, I'm just beginning to accept the fact that my fingers have gone short and fat till my engagement and wedding rings can't fit anymore. And that my feet are swollen too that I've resign to the fate that I have to wear nyonya slippers even to work! Now my nose! Well, I just hope everything will go back to normal once I deliver. I just can't wait to wear back my heels and my skirts. And we do hope that I can still fit into my Maniq's outfit for raya. Sigh...

Even my nose look the same right?

Shopping Spree..... Again

2007-03-11T15:15:00.000+08:00

Weekends once more. The day I've been waiting for. Made a date with my sis-in law to go for shopping at Taka. Taka Baby fair. Hubby was working yesterday so I went there with my sis-in law, her son and hubby, who was kind enough to help carry my shopping bags.

It was my first time going for a baby fair, for the obvious reason, duh! When we reached there, it was so crowded, Packed with preggy mums, mums and dads with their children. And yes there were so much to see, so many things to buy. I was pretty clueless of what to buy and that was why I decided that my sis-in law to tag along.

I shopped like nobody's business and I spent a total of $190! Gosh!!! I just took whatever I liked and just throw them into the basket. Maternity pads, disposable breast pads, baby wipes, bath maps, medicine esstials, bottles, mittens, booties and mostly baby clothes. Sorry no toys. Mama was too engrossed in those tiny, cute baby clothes that she've forgtten to pick up a toy for baby. Never mind. Shall go there again with Papa and let him pay for the toys. Hehehe

And my personal favourite is the mickey mouse set. And I spent less than $20 for that! Just unbelieveable!!!

Comes with mittens, booties, hat, a long-sleeve top and pants! So cute!!! So mickey! And oh so my favourite mouse!!! Maybe if and when we go there again, on yah, its still on-going till 25 March, maybe I'll buy the set again, in different sizes. If he out-grown this one, at least he have another set when he's 6-12 months old..... Hehehehe... I'm going ga-ga over baby's stuffs.

Was itchy too, to get those baby powders, lotions, soaps and shampoo but decided we could still buy them anyway after he's born. I decided NOT to be kiasu parent!

After almost 2 hours at the fair, can you imagine? We rest awhile at Ngee Ann while waiting for hubby to arrive. We then had dinner at Pizza Hut at Lucky Plaza. At last, baby has the chance to have a taste pizza. Been wanting to eat pizza for so long but bad hubby had been putting it off!

Then off to Centerpoint Shopping Center for Robinson sale and to recce if we can get any good bargain for baby stuffs. As we were walking there, hubby's nephew keep clinging onto me, which was quite suprising. He never want to hold my hands before but yesterday, he refused to hold his mum's hand but insist on holding onto mine. Hehehe, strangers might have thought what a young mum I am. Have a three year old born and another one still baking...

Anyway, Centerpoint caught me and hubby by suprised. Didn't realise its had been renovated. Shows how often we get out! Anyway, nothing much to see there at the children section. But overall, I had fun. Shopping! Although I keep having this nagging thought that keep saying I spent too much too soon! Heck!!!! Already been done... Hahaha should've taken a photo of hubby when I showed him the bill. But I've decided not to claim it frm him... Since he paid for both the playpen and stroller and other Gap clothes, think yesterday's shopping should be my treat for baby... Guess I'll be going there again........ Hehehehe

My Past Life

2007-02-28T17:42:00.000+08:00

Wanna know what you were in your past life??

Click here.

P.S This just for entertainment......

This is what I was in my past life

Your past life diagnosis:
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I don't know how you feel about it, but you were female in your last earthly incarnation.You were born somewhere in the territory of modern USA South-Center around the year 1450.Your profession was that of a chemist, alchemist or poison manufacturer.

Poison manufacturer??!!
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Your brief Psychological profile in your past life: You always liked to travel and to investigate. You could have been a detective or a spy.

I knew it!!! Should have follow my heart to become a policewoman
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The lesson that Your last past life brought to your present incarnation:You should develop self-love and ability to implant hope into hearts of people. Ambition is not everything. True wealth is buried in your soul.

Ambition is not everything??? I'll be brain dead by then!!!!
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Do you remember now?

Errrrrrrr...... Nope

United 'R Us

2007-02-22T09:34:00.000+08:00

Gathering or get-together is a fun activity. Be it with family or friends. But what's the use of having a gathering when there's no unity? True, gathering together tightens the bond. Make the whole company closer. But somewhat I see there was no untiy. I just don't like that. One group here. Another group there. And without you knowing it, they started their own thing. ot only was I not invited. Nor did hubby. I can undersand if they were thinking of my condition. But hubby? Is it just because we reached there late? Is it because they were expecting that we won't turn up, just like past years? But still I see nothing wrong in inviting us along with their activities.

True that we potrait ourselves as the quiet type but somehow we're not given the chance to show them our real selves. Or is it, that we didn't give ourselves the chances?
Whatever it was, the gathering was fun. I can really see the bond among families. But to bad, the only thing lacking was the unity.

How I wish I could say, "Yes, I may be pregnant but I'm not disabled."
Sigh.......

Budgetted Shopping

2007-02-17T12:52:00.000+08:00

Got an early release yesterday. Wonder what got into him in giving us an early release on the eve of CNY eve.

Anyway, since I got an early release, met hubby at Toa Payoh Interchange 'cos I wanna go to Toa Payoh Library to pick up this.

A newly launched programme by MCYS and NLB. "Born to Read. Read to Bond" programme. Containind a baby's journal and "Baby's First" CD. The CD contains stories, rhymes, poems and songs. A good deal. A good start to plant our children's interest in reading books. Because I like to read myself, I decided to grab the kit and also bought our boy-boy, his first book.

"Bambi. Prince of the forest". I totally clueless what is the best book to read to babies. Since this is the most straight forward, understandable and simplest book I can find, I think this will do for now for my lil' boy boy.

And also his first photo album. For us to keep all the scan photos and slowly build up the project.

From there we proceed to Suntec City for lunch and also to jalan-jalan. And this kaki gatal of mine walked into Carrefour and to the baby's section. My thought was just recce the baby stuffs available there and hubby saw what he thinks was a good deal. A pram worth $199 and a free playpen worth $99!

I was like "What's the catch?!" The pram was quite big. A bit bulky (heavy too) for my taste but it has a big basket beneath it, where we can just dump anything inside. And the playpen is just nice for our bedroom. Not too big. Just nice to fit into our bedroom. But a $199 stroller and a free playpen. A good deal indeed but I just can't see why its that good. Hubby decided to grab it. But to me, isn't it a bit too early?

After much thought, trying, testing and enquiring, we decided to buy it. Finally. Pandai, bila aku nak start beli botol susu, baju baby, dia cakap nanti. Bab pram & playpen, takpe lah, kira!!! Bertuahnya laki!

We never even planned and foresee that we'll end up buying these stuffs. We've decided that we should drop by Baby's Hyperstore and Baby Kingdom at Kaki Bukit Ave to recce these stuffs but no use planning when you finally end up buying these stuffs elsewhere. Now, what's left is to buy the material, pillows, blanket and their covers.

Oh yah, before I forget. I should mentioned that we dropped by Spring Matenity outlet and bought a grey jeans worth $28! Wow!!!!! And also before that, a free lunch. A treat from hubby. As a matter of fact, my lunch or dinner, whenever we went out, were always paid by hubby. So not suprised there, lah.

By the end of the day, after reviewing our buys, I feel its all worth the money. A free kit from the library, the book and the album from Popular doesn't cost me that much either. A clearance jean from Spring Maternity and a pram and a playpen that cost us a total of $199. I just hope the pram and the playpen IS a good buy and that it can last long. Else, I have hubby to blame for insisting it and my legs for being so gatal to step into Carrefour.

Kicks and songs

2007-02-15T14:37:00.000+08:00

Baby has been quite active nowadays. Although its only the "bubbly-like" kind of kicks but its been quite frequent as compared as when I first felt it, somewhere around my 20th week. During lunch and around bedtime, those are the times he decided to have a soccer section in there.

But recently, I notice he's been kicking me whenever I'm listening to certain songs. Kinda amaze 'cos I was listening to the songs through my earphones. And due to that, maybe I can assume that he likes listening to songs sang by Raihan and the song Asmaulhusna (not sure which group sang that).

Thank God. Was really grateful that he likes those type of songs. He kicks quite often whenever I'm listening to those songs. Even now, I try to attend religious talks/lectures held in the Masjid, as much as possible. Listening to the ceramah especially the opening and closing doa and zikir.

Guides do write that its good to let the baby listen to soothing, classical songs. But I think letting my little boy listen to religious songs is better than listening to Mozart.

Besides those songs, my baby respond quite well too whenever I visit this site. Guess he likes "enjet-enjet semut" too.

Accidentally... Not!!!

2007-02-09T09:29:00.000+08:00

Almost met with an accident this morning at the CTE. My brother was driving me to work this morning and as usual it was a slow traffic there. The gap between my brother's van and the car in front was quite reasonable. And suddenly, this ugly, ransacked, anytime can condemned, red car, driven by a lady whose face I feel like smacking, from the left lane, just drove into our lane just right infront of us. No warning, no signalling, nothing. Just drove in.

By then, the gap between our van and the car in front was closing in and my brother had to make a sudden brake. I can foresee that we're for sure gonna bang into the stupid car. But thank god, it didn't. And guess what, this stupid, ugly looking woman didn't even appologised. Just drove on as if nothing happens. And my brother can't even honked her in time. All he can do was to swear her upside down, which was too bad, she can't hear any of them.

Anyway, even if we were to banged into her, I'm sure it was not our fault. It was her bloody stupid fault. I told bro, if we do banged into her, just say "Its your fault, stupid!" And just drove off!

But the most important thing is, alhamdulillah, we, three are okay.

EXCUSE ME

2007-02-02T23:10:00.000+08:00

"Excuse me? Do you need the seat?"

How would you react when a man asked you that question? Quite loud till the other passengers were looking at you.

HELP!

2007-01-30T09:06:00.000+08:00

My maternity jeans doesn't fit me anymore. My ballerina-type shoes doesn'e fit me anymore. My one-inch covered shoes also doesn't fit me anymore.

Ya' don't expect me to wear black pants everyday to the office?! Expect me to keeping wearing my strap slippers everyday to work?!

Arrrgggghhhh!!!!!!

All about labour and childbirth

2007-01-27T01:13:00.000+08:00

76Had lunch with three experience mommies. We were talking about office-related stuffs and one thing lead to another and ended up talking about labour and childbirth. The contractions. The water-bag thingy. On how they were put on drips. The pushing part. Well, lucky I've finished my lunch.

No doubt it sounded scary and a bit disgusting, but you some sort got to visualize the actual event. The tips and advice. They advise me not to take epidural due to the after effects. And also the labour pain is like a natural hint that you can start pushing your baby out.

According to them, prenatal classes are not really necessary. When the time comes everything about delivery will fall in place. But I don't think prenatal classes covers only the delivery part. It also covers topics on how to make pregnancy comfortable, coping with pain during labour, breathing tech, birth methods and many others. I'm tempting to sigh up for it but due to hubby's working schedule, might as well forget it.

Anyway, at the stage I'm at, I rather sit back and just listen. Rather than thinking of it and scaring my self to shit, I should be enjoying my pregnancy, the pampering and attention I'm getting especially from hubby. And when the time comes, well, that will be another story. And I must be sure that I seek forgiveness from hubby first. Forgiveness for I'll be squezzing his hand very hard!!! Hahaha

It's confirm!

2007-01-25T00:30:00.000+08:00

Yesterday, I went for my first detailed scan at KKH. Reached there around 2.15 pm. Although my appointment was at 3.30 pm, I went to register myself around 2.30 pm. Kiasu kan.... I wanted to register early 'cos I foresee I might wait for quite sometime for my turn. But to my suprised, they called me in around 2.40 pm. Oh well, better early than late, they say. Hahaha. And before we went in, hubby said these to baby, "Baby, open up and show us all very clearly okay. Be a good baby and Papa will buy you something to wear from Gap". Can't believe he's bribing the kid! And at this age! Ish....

This is the time when parents can finally confirm the gender of their baby but as for mine, my baby decided to keep us in further suspense. When checking for each vital growth and development such as the bone structure, kidneys, heart and brain, baby decided to be at different position for every check. Keep rotating around. Active jugak anak ku ini. Apa dia ingat sarkis ke? And the procedure, which usually took about 30-40 minutes, took close to an hour. And no matter in which position my baby was, the legs were folded shut, covering the most important part ever. After all the important data were input, the moment we've been waiting for. And voila, there it was, clear as daylight. A hotdog! Little birdie! Whatever you called it. It's confirm. Our baby is a boy! And guess what?! I won the bet! Hahahahha. I got to name our son!

Yah, that was the bet between me and hubby. Whoever guess the gender right, got to name our baby. Subject to approval, of course. Anyway, we were so much into the scan print-outs given to us, we didn't get the chance to read the result of the ultrsound scan. We don't even know how much he weight? How big is he? Mama and Papa were to busy looking at your pictures that we don't even bother to look at the data. Anyway, my gynae said he's healthy and growing at an expected rate. Oh yah, I've gained a total of 6 kg. In just 5 months!

Now that we know the gender, I just can't wait to go baby shopping. Dearie better remember the bribe he made with baby. And I just can't wait for March's baby fair. But should I wait for the fair or should I just buy straight from those direct importer? Sigh... Looks like I better start writing down a checklist of baby items.

Looks now like there'll be no more shopping for me, then. It'll be shopping for baby! Yeah! I like shopping. Or any kind souls out there willing to pass down their first born items to me.... Hehehehe

Saturday's outing

2007-01-14T20:41:00.000+08:00

Went Vivocity yesterday. Again. But this time the trip there was marvelous. Better than the first one. We had our lunch at The Chicken Rice Shop. So far, of all the chicken rice I've eaten, this is the first time I've tasted the best ever. I mean, even the soup can really taste the fat (lemak). Though its expensive, the meal was worth the price. But the space, its a bit cramp.

After that, off to the cinema to watch Night At the Museum. I know, I know. We caught the movie weeks too late but still better late than never. So funny. So hilarious that I cried laughing till my tummy hurts. Baby might be wondering what's so funny Mama laughed so much. Baby must be bouncing in there. The best part "Hey, dump dump. Where's my gum gum?" Oh yah, we had the nachos combo, which we finished up even before the movie started.

After the movie, we went to watched another comedy movie, called "The Match between Singapore and Vietnam" at the National Stadium. Yah, we went to watched soccer after that. Hubby's brilliant idea. I don't mind since the weather was fine, he paid for the taxi fare and the grandstand. No offence for the Lions supportersbut I found the game a bit slow during the first half and funny during the second half. People were swearing and cursing, I was laughing away. Anyway, swearing is bad for me and the baby.

Overall, I really enjoyed Saturday's outing with Hubby. Oh yah, before I forgot, we just found out the Gap sells baby clothes too. We were window shopping until I saw baby clothes inside the Gap store. So cute and adorable that I had to stopped myself from buying it. We don't even know the gender yet and already I wanna buy one. Especially the dress. With the flocks and the flowering patterns. So cute. Told hubby that once we know the gender, I want to buy one. Just one for the baby before the baby is due. Some sort of welcome to the world gift.

2007-01-10T09:14:00.000+08:00

My brother blamed me because he put on weight! He told me that ever since I got pregnant, he can't seems to stop eating junk food. Chocolates, ice-cream, etc... Its as if he keeps "craving" for chocolates and ice-cream.

Bluy, I never heard of such things. Husbands crave when the wife is pregnant, yah, that I heard before. But siblings of the pregnant woman? Is that just crap or just want to have someone to put the blame to?

Hey, don't blame me for being pregnant just because you put on weight!

Life Simple Pleasure

2007-01-09T12:58:00.000+08:00

Whenever I'm out and about. Be it on my way to work or back or just out spending time with my love ones, I always like to observe the people around me. And I notice, most of the people, not all but I repeat, most, are either rushing for time and/or in a world of their own.

For those always rushing to their destination, they seems oblivious to the people surrounding them. They expect the others to give way to them or be prepared to be bummed/shoved/pushed. They may be late to work or rushing to pick up their children, true, but if only they manage time properly, like leaving home for work early or finish up their deadline and log out on time, they can really make it to their destinations on time. But it some unforsee things happened, just take it as it is and just relax.

If still persistant to rush, just increase the pace. I do rush sometimes but then I realize, why miss out on life simple pleasure. Like a morning walk to the market to buy breakfast. I leave home early. Still, if I woke up late, just enjoy the short stroll to the bus stop. I may miss the bus but heck, there's always another coming. Instead of chasing after it, panting for breath only to find the bus is crowded and people are pushing their way in or some inconsiderate ones standing near the exit blocking the way.

Take things easy, enjoy the morning breeze.

Or just enjoy the ride. And also be open to the ones surrounding you. True, you may be sleepy in the mornings due to insomnia whatever or tired and exhausted after a hard day work but you need not be in a world where you and you alone live. Don't just sit there and stare at those needing the sit, contemplating to either give the seat or not. You either stand and offer the sit or just be it. Nobody is pointing a gun at you. Its your choice. But then again, we all are humans with feelings and you are not living alone in this world. Consideration can really make a difference in ones life. So re-read this phrase to get the point.

I don't have to go so far overseas to enjoy and relax. To enjoy other parts of the world to enjoy the scenery there. Its good though, but I can still enjoy life simple pleasures here. We all do experience stress due to work and personal problems but if we just take the time to slow down a bit and take a breather and be considerate to others, life will be alot meaningful. Your day will be a lot better. And oh, don't forget to put on a cheerful face and smile.

I'm a heck care person. I heck care if I'm late for work. For that I work a few minutes longer to compensate the time lost. That is why I can to enjoy the morning breeze, though alone the road, I can smell smoke, and reached the office in a relax and calm manner with a smile on my cheerful face.

Hardworking me

2007-01-05T23:34:00.000+08:00

Wow, what came over me? Usually I was never this hadworking ever since I become preggy. Once I reached home, bathed, did my evening prayer and had dinner, I then decided to washed the bedroom toilet. Scrub, scrub, brush, brush, splash, splash. Its Friday night, the weekend, I should be out enjoying myself, if not at least resting enjoying a good book. But nope, I was washing the toilet.

And it doesn't ends there. I then proceed cleaning up hubby's wardrobe. Keeping it neat and re-folding his clothes and pants. After which I changed the bedroom curtain. Its been the same curtain eversince Raya. So yah, almost three months already. Climbing up and down the ladder. Somehow I've forgotten that I'm preggy. Hubby will sure shout if he sees me doing all these. Oh yah, he's doing his afternoon shift today and the in-laws are already asleep. So I got no objection from anyone.

I must be nuts to do all these on a Friday night. I usually does my spring cleaning on a Saturday. Luckly I'm not crazy enough to vacuum my room tonight.

Oh yah, for the first time I wrote down a menu for tomorrow. Well, just hope I still got today's hardworking mood to cook tomorrow.

Tummy already started to bulge. But that did not stop me to climb up and down the ladder. Squating to scrub the toilet floor. But I was damn tired and sleepy today at work.

Sorry baby if you're not comfortable in there. Mama is extra hardworking tonight.

Bye! Bye 2006

2007-01-01T23:48:00.000+08:00

Finally, a new year arrived. A lot have been happening in the year 2006. Happy moments, sad moments. Mistakes made. Success and failures along the way. Those sad moments, mistakes and failures that took place, they are not something I'm ashamed of, neither not something I regret happening. Things happended for a reason. If its meant, it'll happen, no matter who well you plan your life ahead. I just took it as a passing journey. Something that we all can learnt from along the way as we reach our journey/goal.

With the arrival of our little Nur in our family soon, I hope both me and hubby will change ourselves to be a better, more matured person than we are now. And hopefully Allah will never stop showering us with his light, protection, love, rezeki and all the goodness only He can grant.

Insya Allah.

May year 2007 will be a good year for all our us, earthlings.

No hotdog or cheeseburger

2006-12-29T23:28:00.000+08:00

I'm in my 15 weeks now and my baby ticker stated that we'll be able to know the gender of our precious lil one. Few days ago, we went for out third checkup at KKH Private Suite. We had to wait for almost an our because my gynae was out for delivery. I even managed to doze off while waiting.

And to make the waiting worst, a couple before us were in there with the gynae for almost half and hour. What the heck were they asking the gynae?! When they came out of the room, they bumped into their friends and they way they were talking to their friends, I imagined they have tons of questions throwing at the gynae.

Anyway, back to the topic. Even my gynae said that we'll be able to see it, if the baby
cooperates. But baby chose to keep us in suspense. Naughty naughty! The baby was squatting with his/her head pointing downwards and his/her private part was covered shut. Berkepit anak ku ini.

Told some of my collegues about it and most of them said its gonna be a girl. Hubby was very happy when he I told him about it. Seems like he's gonna be a winner. We made a deal that whoever guess the gender right will be able to name the baby. If the name sounds good and have a meaningful meaning behind it, none of us will object. But no matter, mid next month, we'll get the confirmation.

Ok, back to the check-up. For the first time, we finally get to hear our baby's heartbeat. Sounded like a horse galloping. Sounded very fast too. But it seems that my gynae was in a hurry that she forgot to measure our baby's length.

Oh yah, I've gained 2.6 kg! In just 4 weeks! Gosh......

Baby Doll Dresses

2006-12-24T13:20:00.000+08:00

I'm such a shopaholic that when I found out that I am pregnant, I just can't wait to go shopping for new clothes. I finally have a reason to shop for new clothes especially for my expanding tummy. But my jaw sure drop when I found out about the price. I never, ever spent that much for just a top. Can you believe that a simple blouse would cost me almost 50 bucks as compared to other normal blouse and the only different between the two is that the maternity blouse has a string at the back. Why would I want to spend so much money for a blouse that I'm only going to wear during my preggy term. Yah, true I'm a shoppaholic but a shoppaholic with a budget.

And thanks to hubby, I now found a new love for baby doll dress. My first baby doll dress bought from Zana during a sale. I used to hate baby doll dress because it make you look so pregnant but guess its the right time now to wear it. Furthermore, it can still be wore when I reached my full term. Its also a hit nowadays among youngsters and I can also wear it after my pregnancy. And so thus, begin my search for more baby doll dress.

Long sleeves, short sleeves, black, white, brown, plain, patterns, you named it I have it all. Short sleeves of course I wore it with a cardigan. Most of my baby doll dress were bought from This Fashion. Cheap and stylish and not so ah-lian. Oh, hubby is so proud of me for thinking like so :) . Save his moolah. Only a few bought from boutiques but only when they are on sale.

As for pants, well, I can't help it but to buy from Spring Maternity. Expensive, yah, but comfy like mad. My friend told me that Mustafa Center has a few cheap maternity pants but I just don't like the pattern. I'm not so into straight cut, baggy type of pants. I'm so vain, yeah I know. Anyway, I only have two black pants so pandai-pandai lah interchangeable between these two. Anyway, black goes with everything. And yes, I washes them often!!!

Now, I'm still in search for more baby doll dress and also the kimono type of blouse. There was once I saw a pregnant lady wore a kimono type of blouse. Looked nice. But was to shy to ask her where she bought it. And also those maternity long skirts. I ni hantu skirts. But those selling in stores are usually the short skirts. Hahaha...Therefore, my quest continues... Yeah!!!

Cats

2006-12-23T23:44:00.000+08:00

I miss my cats so much that I'm dedicating this space for them. Introducing to you ...

Tigger and Stokin. Or better known as Along and Adik among the family. Brought home by dad almost seven years ago when they were approximately few months old. Still a kitten and living near my dad's work site, which was a dangerous home for them. Noticing that there are no adult cats around them, he took pity of them and gave them a better home. God, bless dad's kind soul.

The male cat is called Tigger because he is the talkative one. Similiar to the Tigger, the tiger in the cartoon Winnie the Pooh. He's quite big and have black stripes all over, just like that os a tiger. But too bad, can't say the same about his bravery. Whenever he heard footsteps, he'll run and jump on top of mum's cupboard and stayed there until the coast is clear. But when it comes to chasing and bullying the other one, he'll not stop until we intervened.

This one is called Stokin because there is a big patch on all her four legs. The bitch of the two cats. Though often bullied by Tigger, she thinks she's the diva of the house. She's choosy. Picky. She won't eat together with Tigger unless she's starving. She'll just take a sniff and walk away with her nose up in the air. But will quietly walked back to the kitchen when no one's there. Or so she thinks. Don't ever cuddly or stroke her. When she wants to be pampered, she'll come to you. Or else get ready to be snarl by her. She's closest to mum. Will only sleep with mum on the bed. She'll give a very long face when mum's not at home. She's a cat with an attitude.

They sure know how to relax... Lepaz seh..........

And I sure know how to bully them... Hahahaha Rabaz.......

And introducing our latest addition in the family. Brought home by my brother.

Gemuk aka Fatty (Duh!)

And whenever I went to mum's house, I'll hug them and kiss them and love them and also "torture" them. HAHAHAHA

Comparison

2006-12-23T01:25:00.000+08:00

I don't care if I don't get any attention about my pregnancy in the office. I'm not much of an attention seeker anyway. And I don't care if there is another one of the same term as I am. And I surely don't give a damn who is earlier than the other.

But I do give a damn if people keep comparing us two. Well, do so if you want to behind my back but not directly infront of me. I was quite upset when two of my closest colleagues compared us two openly infront of me. But being who I am, I kept my cool.

What's the big deal anyway? Does it matter who's earlier? Does it matter if she goes for her detailed scan weeks earlier than mine? Does it matter if her tummy is bigger than mine? For goodness sake, they are mummies themselves, surely they know some of the factors on why some preggy ladies have bigger tummy than the others wherelse they are at the same term. To be frank, she's already plumpy way before she got married. Could be that's why her tummy is bigger than mine.

As a matter of fact, why should I give a damn about who's tummy is bigger?! This is no freaking competition! Does the baby health determine by the size of the tummy? Heck! Some people have such a low sensitivity!

Some even have the nerve to say, "eh your tummy very small lah. Must eat more."

Hello! Only 14 weeks preggy. FYI!

Why do people still have this thinking that once you're pregnant, you must eat for two?! You want me to eat more but do you know who will end up vomitting? Who will end up having red spots all over the face? ME!

For goodness sake people, wanna talk or ask about my pregnancy, stop with the comparison thingy and stop about eating for two. Yes, my appetite increase but not the quantity!

Cooking

2006-12-18T09:21:00.000+08:00

I think I can remove cooking under my "Favorites". I haven't been cooking for, hmm, lets see, for the past three weeks. yes, I've been to the kitchen of course. Washing, heating and cleaning. But not cooking. We have even replaced the old cooker to a new one and I'm yet to cook something on it.

Been eating out for the past weekends. But the strange thing is, I had the mood to clean the entire house including the two bathrooms, all by myself but when it comes to cooking, my mood switched to lazy mode.

Thank God, hubby is okay with it. But at my current stage and situation, I think its okay. Right?

Right?

2006-12-15T17:16:00.000+08:00

For the first time in my life (or at least as I can remember) my brother asked me a very funny question.

Him: So when are you going to start staying in the house?
Me: Huh? What do you mean?
Him: Don't tell me you're still going to work when your tummy gets bigger?
Me: Ah then! What were you thinking? Of course I still need to go to work.
Him: Huh? Really huh?

Hehehe. My naive brother. Well, who could blame him for being so. But yah, I bet its going to be tough and challenging to go to work when I'll be 8 or 9 months pregnant. Imagine travelling from Yishun to Paya Lebar and back in a "sardin-can" train, when everyday evidence showed me that the chance for a full-term pregnant lady to get a sit is quite slim (still got chance lah but slim).

How I wish I can just take a cab during my third trimester. Sigh... Anyone willing to donate? Or hitch me a ride? Hehehehe

Shopping!

2006-12-11T15:49:00.001+08:00

I'm suppose to blog abt my visit to ViVo City. Well, verdict. I give it 5/10. Well, I'm no critic but that place is sure is expensive, mostly boutiques. It's really, really wide, my legs hurt just to cover the whole perimeter. And I basically end-up buying nothing, 'cos there's nothing for me to buy. So I end up not shopping, which was what I planned to do.

But I do when shopping last Saturday. When Geylang first to buy a few new blouse. Not all for me. I bought new blouses for the mums as well, though mostly are for me, of course! Oh yah, hubby bought me a new blouse too. :)

Then off we go to Suntec. Again. At first, we went to Bugis 'cof it'd been a long time since we last been there. I though I can buy a new maternity pant there but the prices at Theme Maternity, my goodness... So hubby decided that we should go to Maternity Spring at Suntec. Not that cheap but at least not as expensive at Theme Maternity. Anyway, I like coming here. The wide, spacious fitting room and of course the service. Whoever served you, will wait outside the fitting room and check if the blouses or pants will still fit you when you're at your later stage. Bought my second pair of pants and a new jeans. And, errr, I spent around, hmmm, you'll know if you happen to go to Maternity Spring at Suntec.

And oh yah, hubby bought me my first Top Shop blouse. Pathetic right. There was once I overheard my cousin telling our other cousin that she first wore her Top Shop blouse when she was in Secondary 1. Well, as for me, I bought my first Top Shop blouse at the age of 25. Beat that!

And my total spending, well, most probably reaching my half-month bonus!

WOOHOOO

2006-12-05T11:50:00.000+08:00

I'm on leave today!!! Wooohoooo!!!

ViVoCity, here we come!!!!

To be continued.......

Silence, peace, serenity and tranquillity

2006-12-03T16:48:00.000+08:00

Went to visit Dad yesterday with mum, bro & hubby. And also dropped by for awhile at hubby's grandmother. As we were about to leave, I looked around and realised how quiet it is. Silence. No sounds of vehicles. No sounds of human chattering. Nothing. I can hear the sound of the wind blowing. And suddenly I feel so at peace. So serene.

Its a wonder that I can find such quietness. Such peace at such a place. We always have this picture that the place for the dead is the most creepiest place, most scariest place especially at night. But during the day, Pusara Aman is the place I can go for some quietness and peace.

Though I feel at peace, I can't help it feeling sad. Those graveyards left unattended. Weeds covered up the tombstones that you can't even see the name. I somewhat felt sad for them as if their family has totally forgotten about them.

Semoga Allah mencucuri rahmat keatas roh-roh umat Islam yang telah pergi. Amin

What a question...

2006-12-01T22:08:00.000+08:00

Was asked about my pregnancy.

"So, are you excited?"

DUH!

Wave from baby

2006-11-30T13:42:00.000+08:00

We went for our third check-up yesterday and as per normal, our gynae scan to see the development of our baby and guess what? He's waving at us. And I think he's happy that we're watching him, that he's bouncing up and down.

Only 4 weeks ago, he was 1.7 inches. And now he's 4.7 cm! My, my. How fast my baby grow.

Oh yah, the gender of the baby has not been determined yet but I always keep referring my baby as him. Hmmm.... Maybe it's gonna be a boy.....

Notice to all ladies

2006-11-29T13:38:00.000+08:00

To all ladies who are reading

Dear Ladies,

For those who always place your bag near the ez-Link card reader, if the reader can't read your card for the first time, please back away from the line and take out your card and scan it again. Instead of keep trying to scan from that big ugly bag of yours and create a long queue at the back!

Thank you for your cooperation

I left him

2006-11-28T15:46:00.000+08:00

I left him behind in search of.....

A toilet.

Very urgent

Menu of the Day

2006-11-22T22:51:00.000+08:00

Breakfast
Sausage McMuffin™ with Egg
Soya Milk

Tea Break (before lunch)
Sour sweets

Lunch
Golden Pillow Chicken Curry (colleague's treat)
Polar's Chocolate Cake

Tea Break
Chocolates (thought of having just a cheese sandwich but was forgotten with the sight of chocolates)

Before dinner treat
Mixed Fruit Tart from Delifrance

Dinner
Rice
Beansprout soup
Fried fish

Supper (after 10 pm!)
Chicken Feuilleté from Delifrance

I doubt the above menu got anything to do with craving. The throat just suddenly felt like having them. Except for dinner, cooked by mum-in law and lunch treat. So those were beyonn my control.

Can't Fit

2006-11-19T16:17:00.000+08:00

Was looking for something to wear yesterday when I came across a kebaya given to me by hubby as a hantaran gift. Its was tailor-made. Hubby got a matching outfit too. We were supposed to wear that one the first day of Hari Raya this year. But guess what? I can't even completely zip it up!

Guess it was not such a good idea at all. Should have just bought the material and make a dress out of it. Now, its just hanging there collect dust. I doubt I'll be able to fit into it again. Unless I reduce back to my original figure. So advice to those getting married, don't exchange baju kurung. Unless of course, you make it a few inches bigger or if you plan not to conceive until you manage to wear the baju kurung/kebaya for the coming Hari Raya.

All hopes gone

2006-11-17T09:41:00.001+08:00

No hope. Absolutely no hope at all. This morning at Yishun MRT station, as usual, when an empty train comes, all the awaiting passengers will rush to the front of the line and quickly grab the emptry seats, once they're in, as if they never sat down before. And I saw an elderly lady standing infront of an able-bodied young man. He was looking at her and I can make out as if he's indecisive on wheather or not to give his seat to her. In the end, he decided not to and went on reading his newspaper. Such a pity, to have such a man or anyone that's still young, to come to such a decision.

This happened before a few days back when I saw a heavily, tired-looking pregnant lady standing and no one gave up their seat to her. I know that some people might think that pregnant ladies are always hoping for a seat just because they're pregnant. But now I know why they appreciate (though some I experience as if they well deserved it without a smile or even a simple thank you) people giving up their seat. It's because of the weight. I'm beginning to feel the weight now, though I'm only in my nine weeks and I can tell you its not a very pleasant feeling. Its as if I've stand for hours!

Told hubby that my chance of getting a seat in the train especially those empty ones is zero. It seems there are not many kind souls out there when it comes to giving up their seats especially in the mornings.

Where to Go?

2006-11-15T14:00:00.001+08:00

Another one more week till our one year anniversary. Still, I'm brain dead of what to get for hubby. But then again, if I do get something for him, won't it be the same as a birthday celebration. Go out have dinner, exchange gifts and that's it. Sounds so normal and plain. I mean, unlike birthdays, shoudn't it be something romantic? Something different. I mean, it's suppose to be OUR day, after a year of going through ups and down.

Few months back, we talked about where to go for our second honeymoon. Since we can't afford to go to Gold Coast again, we were thinking of going to Langkawi. And he said that we must visit the lake of the pregant maiden and drink from the lake (guess we could skip that part now). But since the little one is on the way, hubby thinks its best we save the money for the little one. And also he thinks its not safe for me to travel. Buuhuu...

My life is so boring! Just a miute ago, I can't believe that we spent our 6 months anniversary booking a chalet at East Coast. Just the two of us. How boring can we get?! And know what? We got a room with a bed that made a squeking sound! Imagine spending a night on a bed that squek whenever your body moves!

And someone talked about Bintan. Gosh! Why talked about all this places when I know I can't go! And my collegue who is 5 months pregnant, just came back from Bangkok! Arrrggghhhh. My one year anniversary is gonna be a bored silly one!!!

Advance Medical Directive Act

2006-11-14T23:09:00.001+08:00

Yah, yah. I know. Its been out in the news for so long. Well, sorry for my lagging. Anyway, for those who do not know what this is, well, click here lah .

After reading further, the government do have a point of creating such act. The weird thing is, its been passed in Parliment in May !996, and I only come to know of it while surfing the net. Well now, you know how often I read the news, then.

Some might debate about this as there are bound to be pros and cons of it. Surfed futher but can't find any websites with comments or opposition about this. So therefore, whatever, I repeat, WHATEVER, is written here, is strictly based on my own personal views and opinions. Anyone can place their comments or reviews but no criticism, okay?!

I felt this is a good idea because it lets the patient to make the decision. His/her own decision of wanting to cling on to their lives or to just go in peace and dignity. Have not got the chance to discuss with hubby about this, but after reading about it and thought about it, this act not only allow the patient to make his/her own decision but its also for the good of his/her immediate family. The family wouldn't be burden with the expenses, won't be burden in making the decision of either continuing with the life support or to take it off. And also the family won't be called as ruthless or heartless if they decided to pull the plug.

At the end of the day, its all about family. Family always come first. Of course, we never like to burden our family with any sort of problems or troubles.

But then again, even if the family do choose to put the patient on life support, is really prolonging one's life lies in their hands? Or, in this case, the machine?

Something to think about.

Ajal, maut, hanyalah ditangan Allah s.w.t

Petechiae

2006-11-13T09:36:00.001+08:00

My make-up is extra thick today. I just hope people don't comment on it. Oh, no, its not that thick like wayang pekji or some sort. I was trying to hide those red spots on my face. Though mum said its not that very obvious, but I'm not taking any chances.

What those red spots on my face? No its not chicken pox neither it is rashes. Its what the doctor called, petechiae (pronounced pet-TEA-key-eye), caused by abnormal bleeding from small blood vessels that have broken close to the skin. Sounds serious, aye? Well, not really. The doc said they'll dissapear after a few days. He said its probaby due to the vomitting I had last Saturday night.

Well, at least its better than some rashes. Or worst. Chicken pox. Anyway, its not always I got to put on heavy make-up. Once in awhile, over a little bit.

Anyway, had two pieces of masala thosai for breakfast yesterday. Actually the other was meant for hubby. Well, its his fault too. He didn't tell he was having the same for breakfast too. Anyway, its fair I had two. I am eating for two, right?

To buy or Not to Buy

2006-11-02T22:43:00.000+08:00

Ever tried cooking & surfing simultaneously? Will I did. Guess that will be my first and last time doing so. 'cos my fried rice almost burnt. And it took me twice as long to prepare than my usual timing.

Anyway, my Zen Creative went dead today. Kapot! Thought of buying Zen Vision. It can stored not only mp3s but also videos and photos. And you can also listen to the radio and there's a recorder too. Cool eh. But guess how much it cost? Around 500 smackeroos.

Not sure if its necessary because I can just buy the cheap ones. 1G mp3 player for about $150+. But this one I can carry with me my wedding videos, photos and also my baby's photo. But then again, I am thinking of buying a new specs too. Those with transition lens. That too will cost me around almost $500-700.

Or should I just save up my bonus buying maternity and baby stuffs? Sigh... Just when I thought of buying a new specs and a new mp3 player.

Argghhh, I hate making choices... Please, anyone, willing to buy me the Creative Zen Vision. Or maybe I should just get hubby to buy it for me, since our anniversary is just three weeks away.

Hmmm.... I wonder.....

Raya OOOOOO

2006-10-27T11:42:00.001+08:00

Selamat Hari Raya to All!!

Wooo, just came back from Malaysia. Celebrate Raya with Nyai, as usual. But this year is different. First, I'm celebrating Raya as a wife. *** blush blush ***. And of course with the little "hitch-hicker" inside... Hehehehe. Funny though, I thought I won't be enjoying the Hari Raya goodies but nope. This throat of mine accepted those food gracefully. Man, you should have see me gulped down those ayam korma, sayur lodeh & sambal goreng with lontong... Foohyooo...

Secondly, since I'm preggy, that are so many things that I can't do & doesn't fit me. My newly tailored kebaya! Was so fed-up that morning that the kain was so tight! Can still fit but damn tight!!! Its as if its squeezing my tummy. Felt so suffocating I unhook it. Was just praying that the kain wouldn't just drop down. And also, mum & hubby forbid me from playing the mercun! Was only allowed to sit & watch! Bummer! So boring!!!!

So basically that's it. Not much but I had tons of fun! New relatives & family members to celebrate with. And also that means more $$$ spent.. HAHAHAHA

Chio......

Another yummy yummy biscuits

2006-10-22T14:05:00.000+08:00

Another of my favourite. Cornflakes. Likewise, my mood is gone once I put all the ingredients together. So that leaves mum to put the mixture into the cups, baked them and store them up once they're done. It was my idea. I was so on to baked these babies, but mum had to do all the work. Sorry mum. Mood turn off fast lately.

Oh yah, the soup noodle you prepared especially for me. Not accepted by the throat.

Things change, my hormones change, I CHANGE

2006-10-19T22:45:00.001+08:00

Things that turn me off. And also the taste buds.

High heels: I'm the queen of high heels. But now, looking at it, gives my heels the pain. Ouch
Jeans. Damn, I just bought that Levi's jeans. Still fit though but it feels as if its squeezing my tummy tight. Can hardly breathe.
Curry. Be it chicken curry or fish curry, just by looking at it, my appetite just gone.
Spicy. I love spicy food. Not anymore.
Fried stuffs. Especially fried chicken. First thought, YUCK!!!
Anything oily. That means no eating Raya food.... :(

Funny thing is, the tongue seems to accept soupy, bland stuffs. Lucky my favourite Ba Mian is still acceptable. Just need to change from prawn to slice fish. French fries & chips, thank you, still a yes. Hahaha. Ice-cream, yum yum still can but need to cut down on that.

Man, talking about all these stuffs, now I feel like puking... Have pity on me, baby... Oh no, gonna go. Gonna puke.

Super Pissed Off

2006-10-16T14:08:00.001+08:00

I was super pissed off last night with one of the neighbours. Here's why. Garbage had been piling up near the staircase since the day I moved in. At first, was just small ones but lately it has becoming bigger and bigger.

Yesterday afternoon, there was a few red plastic bags near the stairs.I don't think it's my next door neighbour's doing 'cos their door was shut. And later at night, the pile was added up by more garbage bags! I was so furious I shouted, "renovating the house is it! Problem with the dustbin!". Deep down I knew its THAT house doing. The house with that strange aunty & that stalker guy.

And that's not only that, I also happened to be home alone (hubby worked afternoon shift), at mid-night, somebody pressed the door bell. What a timing. I thought it was hubby though it was too early to be him, and what I saw was a deserted corridor. Damn, somebody did it again. This happened before last week. Same timing. And I just got a gut feeling it's from that same bloody house!

Maybe the previous owner moved out 'cos of them. Great! I have myself a weird, dysfunction family.

One who likes to borrow money on a first meet and another who likes to flirt with someone's wife. And a family who likes to dump garbage at the staircase and likes to play pranks.

Hooray, "lucky" me!

Cookies.. Yummy yummy cookies

2006-10-16T00:27:00.000+08:00

My old time favourite. Chocolate chip cookies. Never missed to baked these babies every year. Though, I have to admit. I totally have no mood to even start. Strange lah, as I never felt this way before. Usually, by the second week of Ramadhan, I'd started buying the ingredients and digging up my recipe book. Well, last year is last year, this year is this year.

Doesn't it look appertising. And it tasted good too. As usual. Heck, if nobody gonna praise me, might as well I give myself credits. I have to admit though, I am good at baking biscuits or cookies but I suck BIG time when it comes to cakes. It'll always end up with the sinking crater at the center of the cake.

Look yummy, yummy. Wanna a bite? Come to my house! HAHAHA

Cranky Me

2006-10-15T00:46:00.000+08:00

Went Geylang today with mum and I think I should blame my hormones for how I felt today. Super cranky. I was holding flowers on one hand and curtains on the other. And people keep bumping into me, pushing me like nobody's business. No appologies, no "excuse me". Eh, hello!!! Pregnant lady here! Oh yah, I forget, my tummy is still flat. And why the heck there's so many people here?! Bummer, its Saturday, stupid!

And why are there a bunch of kids there? They're not buying anything. Just stand there at one corner, laughing, smoking, rubbing, hugging. Dressing up so short, so tight, so ugly. Heck, they are just taking up space. Can somebody tell them to go away!

Sigh, I'm one cranky, pregnant woman!

Opps. He did it again.

2006-10-13T09:11:00.000+08:00

Remember the aunt I wrote about few weeks ago. The one asking me for money on our first meet. Well, this time is about her son. Well, I assume he's her son 'cos I saw him before in her kitchen from my kitchen window. Yesterday, as I was walking down the stairs, I noticced this guy behind me. Then he asked me for the time. After that, he asked me if I lived upstairs. Duh! I just said yah. I began to feel guilty forthe way I answered him 'cos maybe he is trying to be friendly. In a neighbourly type of way but then again, neighbour or not, it has been my policy not to be friendly with male stranger.

Anyway, this morning, as I was walking towards the stairs, I saw him again. Lucky his back was facing me so he didn't see me, I quickly walked back to the door and told hubby that the guy was there on the stairs. I waited for hubby to freshen up and by the time he got ready, I told hubby he must have leave. I was wrong. He was still there, loitering near the staircase. And I can see he was quite suprised to see me with hubby. And quickly walked down the stairs.

Hubby was so angry that he said loudly that these type of people have nothing better to do. He told me, he bumped into this guy once long back as hubby was climbing down the stairs. But this guy just ignored him, so hubby did the same. But when he knew that this guy chatted up with his wife, he was so pissed off and said those words.

Sigh. Strange neighbour I have. First the makcik. Now the guy. I wonder who's next.

SO tired

2006-10-12T09:13:00.000+08:00

Oh my gosh. I never felt this type of fatigue in my life! The tiredness. The sleepyness. The backache. And I'm still in my early stage!

Finally! Thank you Allah!

2006-10-09T23:39:00.000+08:00

Today is the happiest day ever. For both me and hubby. Allah the Great, the Loving, the Mighty, has given us the most precious gift. The gift we've been waiting for, for the past 10/11 months of our marriage. For that we're grateful for him and we'll take very good care of this precious gift of him with loving, tender and care. I'll pray that He'll will never stop showering us with His love, strength and courage to go through this next level of my life. I'll pray that I'll be strong, that everything will go smoothly.

And as promised, Hubby shaved his head G.I style. Nobody forced him. To him, its just his way of saying thanks to the Al-Mighty Allah. It was his hajat long back. Can still see his smile, the happiness and his gratefullness in his eyes. He has forseen this but rather kept it to himself until it was confirmed. And it is. It's confirmed.

Dear God, we are forever thankfull for this precious gift from you. Thank you Allah. I'll take very good care of this gift. Its now my responsibilities and I'll carry them out as well as I could, Insya Allah. But Allah, I forever will need your strength, patience, forgiveness and Nur, to face through this next level in my life. I pray that everything will go smooth. I pray that eveything will be normal. I pray that we will be safe. Safe in your hands.

Dear Hubby, this is the most precious gift, the most meaningful gift ever. See what our love have created. Our patience, our prayers and our hard work finally paid off. I'll take very good care of it, Insya Allah. And also means that 9 months of no heavy workload, 9 months of pampering. WoooHooo.

TGIF! A Happy Friday!

2006-10-06T15:19:00.000+08:00

Yes! Yes! Tomorrow is hubby's off day. Its rare of him to be off on Saturday. And finally, he can help me clean up the house. The house is in a mess ever since we moved in 2 weeks ago. And empty. The TV and the TV rack are here. Can't wait for the sofas to be in though. Dining table have to wait for in-laws to move in. Thought of buying our own but since they're going to stay with us for awhile, might as well use theirs. But in the meantime, we're eating on the floor. Sounds kinda sadistic,right. Like back in the old kampung days.

Anyway, we're going to the market 1st. Yishun market together, first time ever since we moved in here. Vacumm, mop and wipe the necessary. Throw away those boxes. And while I cook, he can do the drilling and the hanging. By late afternoon, off to my mum's for break-fast. After that, off to Geylang. Yes! A well-planned Saturday.

Woohooo. I'm so happy. So happy that I'm listening to Raya songs.... Kiasu.... But I don't care 'cos I'm so happy......

Swing Baby Swing

2006-10-04T13:06:00.000+08:00

Wonder why when people walk, they must swing their arms? But the biggest wonder was why must swing so high? I hate walking behind those who swings their arms so high up. You never know they might hit any of your part.

I think they are doing the parade march......

Such a waste

2006-10-03T09:01:00.000+08:00

After break-fast yesterday at Plaza Sing, decided to go to the Carnival Raya at Bugis. And man, was it a sad sight. I expected it to be like the bazaar at Geylang or at least something like at Woodlands. But what we saw was a waste of space and a waste of time for us. There are a few booth there but too few. More on food, as usual. Not much of booths selling clothes or accessories. There are even booths selling insurance stuffs! At the bazaar Raya!

I prefer the bazzar at Geylang. I'm yet to go to bazaar Geylang, but I'm sure its nothing compare to the past years bazaar. I'm sure most people, especially the elders, complained about the crowd, but you have to admit, the atmosphere there somewhat makes you look forward for the festival. The lights, the colours, the buzzling, the hagging, the smell of food. One thing I can't stand though, was the constant pushing. And who, in the right mind, will bring a big pram to the bazaar! Common sense will tell you that it's going to be crowded, especially over the weekends, but yet parents will insist of bringing their young child and put them inside the pram. They'll create such a jam with their, "besar lagi takde ke" pram and the kid will be "singing" at the top of his/her lungs. Panas kan budak tu. Dah lah sempit, panas lak tu... Masya Allah, sesungguhnya aku berpuasa.

Anyway, enough said, the bazzar raya at Bugis is nothing compared to the bazaar at Geylang of the past years.

Another F for me

2006-10-02T08:51:00.000+08:00

Heck! Already I'm not cooking for hubby for break-fast, I even forget to cook rice for this morning sahur. I was blogging away happily, that when it was time for bed, I realized I have not cook rice for next day sahur. We had some dishes brought over from my mum's place but no rice.

"Alamak, yang, camner?" Tahu pun cuak aku!!

"Tak payah sahur lah"

God, am I lucky to be bless with such an understanding hubby.

Then, I suddenly remember Mum packed for us some Roti John too. Thank you MUM!!! God bless you!

Sigh, not only I haven't been cooking for break-fast and sahur (always packed from Mum), I even forget to cook some rice for sahur!

Alamaknya, Raya nanti, mesti minta maaf banyak-banyak dari suami....

Another big fat F for me!!!

F for me

2006-10-01T23:20:00.000+08:00

Hari dah masuk seminggu berpuasa. How do I feel? Guilty! If this is an actual test with marks, I would score a big fat F! This year will be my first time fasting as a wife. Like any wife, I would love to cook for my husband for break-fast. Not that I never cooked for him before. But somehow I felt that I failed in that area. I did managed to wake up early for sahur. As early as 4 am. I considered that the biggest achievement ever, 'cos even before marriage, getting up at 5 am is like a burden to me. But of course, I need to get up early and prepare stuffs. If not me, who will since we're living alone (though for awhile only ***sad*** )

I did mentioned this to hubby about this and he said its okay. I'm a working wife and by the time I reached home, there will be not enough time and energy for me to prepare. And since my mum lived by and since she do not mind, we "attacked" her house for break-fast.

I wonder what does other newly-wed wives spent Ramadhan? Do they cook for the husband? I sure do envy my mum. She was a wroking wife before, still manage to get home and put something fast for all of us for break-fast. Guess that's the different between wives back then and modern wives today.

The Ideal Muslimah and Her Community

2006-09-29T13:57:00.000+08:00

1. She is truthful

2. She does not cheat, deceive or stab in the back

3. She is not envious

4. She is sincere

5. She keeps her promises

6. She has a good attitude towards others and treats them well

7. She is characterized by shyness

8. She is gentle towards people

9. She is compassionate and merciful

10. She is tolerant and forgiving

11. She is easy-going in her business dealings

12. She is of cheerful countenance

13. She has a sense of humour

14. She is patient

15. She avoids cursing and foul language

16. She does not falsely accuse anyone of fisq or kufr

17. She is modest and discreet

18. She dose not interfere in that which does not concern her

19. She refrains from backbiting and slander

20. She avoids giving false statements

21. She avoids suspicion

22. She keeps secrets

23. She does not converse privately with another person when there is a third person present

24. She is not arrogant or proud

25. She is humble and modest

26. She does not make fun of anyone

27. She respects elders and distinguished people

28. She mixes with people of noble character

29. She strives for people's benefits and seeks to protect her from harm

30. She strives to reconcile between Muslims

31. She calls people to truth

32. She is wise and eloquent in her da`wah

34. She is not a hypocrite

35. She does not show off or boast

36. She is straightforward and consistent in her adherence to the truth

37. She visits the sick

39. She repays favours and is grateful for them

40. She mixes with people and puts up with their insults

41. She tries to make people happy

42. She guides others to righteous deeds

43. She is easy on people, not hard

44. She is fair in her judgement of people

45. She does not oppress or mistreat others

46. She loves noble things and always aims high

47. Her speech is not exaggerated or affected

48. She does not rejoice in the misfortunes of others

49. She is generous

50. She does not remind the beneficiaries of her charity

51. She is hospitable

52. She prefers others to herself

53. She helps to alleviate the burden of the debtor

54. She is proud and does not beg

55. She is friendly and likeable

56. She checks her customs and habits against Islamic standards

57. She follows Islamic manners in the way she eats and drinks

58. She spreads the greeting of salam

59. She does not enter a house other than her own without permission

60. She avoids yawning in a gathering as much as she can

62. She follows the Islamic etiquette when she sneezes

63. She does not look into other people's houses

64. She does not imitate men

from www.islaam.com

How to Seek Laylatul-Qadr

2006-09-29T13:55:00.000+08:00

BY:Shaykh Muhammad Nasir-ud-Deen al-Albani

Laylat ul-Qadr is the most blessed night. A person who misses it has indeed missed a great amount of good. If a believing person is zealous to obey his Lord and increase the good deeds in his record, he should strive to encounter this night and to pass it in worship and obedience.

If this is facilitated for him, all of his previous sins will be forgiven.

Praying Qiyaam

It is recommended to make a long Qiyaam prayer during the nights on which Laylat ul-Qadr could fall. This is indicated in many hadeeths, such as the following:

Abu Tharr (radhiallahu `anhu) relates:

"We fasted with Allah's Messenger (sallallahu `alayhi wa sallam) in Ramadaan. He did not lead us (in qiyaam) at all until there were seven (nights of Ramadaan) left. Then he stood with us (that night - in prayer) until one third of the night had passed. He did not pray with us on the sixth. On the fifth night, he prayed with us until half of the night had passed. So we said, 'Allah's Messenger! Wouldn't you pray with us the whole night?' He replied:

'Whoever stands in prayer with the imaam until he (the imaam) concludes the prayer, it is recorded for him that he prayed the whole night.'?" [Recorded by Ibn Abi Shaybah, Abu Dawud, at-Tirmithi (who authenticated it), an-Nasa'i, Ibn Majah, at-Tahawi (in Sharhu Ma`an il-Athar, Ibn Nasr, al-Faryabi, and al-Bayhaqi. Their isnad is authentic.]

Point of benefit:

Abu Dawud mentioned: "I heard Ahmad being asked, 'Do you like for a man to pray with the people or by himself during Ramadan?' He replied, 'Pray with the people' I also heard him say, 'I would prefer for one to pray (qiyaam) with the imaam and to pray witr with him as well, for the Prophet (sallallahu `alayhi wa sallam) said: "When a man prays with the imaam until he concludes, it is recorded that he prayed the rest of that night." [Masaa'il]

Abu Hurayrah (radhiallahu `anhu) narrated that the Messenger (sallallahu `alayhi wa sallam) said:

"Whoever stands (in qiyaam) in Laylat ul-Qadr [and it is facilitated for him] out of faith and expectation (of Allah's reward), will have all of his previous sins forgiven." [Al-Bukhari and Muslim; the addition "and it is facilitated for him" is recorded by Ahmad from the report of `Ubaadah Bin as-Samit; it means that he is permitted to be among the sincere worshippers during that blessed night.]

Making Supplications

It is also recommended to make extensive supplication on this night. `A'ishah (radhiallahu `anha) reported that she asked Allah's Messenger (sallallahu `alayhi wa sallam), "O Messenger of Allah! If I knew which night is Laylat ul-Qadr, what should I say during it?" And he instructed her to say:

Allahumma innaka `afuwwun tuh.ibbul `afwa fa`fu `annee - O Allah! You are forgiving, and you love forgiveness. So forgive me." [Recorded by Ahmad, Ibn Majah, and at-Tirmithi. Verified to be authentic by Al-Albani]

Abandoning Worldly Pleasures for the Sake of Worship

It is further recommended to spend more time in worship during the nights on which Laylat ul-Qadr is likely to be. This calls for abandoning many worldly pleasures in order to secure the time and thoughts solely for worshipping Allah. `A'ishah (radhiallahu `anha) reported:

"When the (last) ten started, the Prophet (sallallahu `alayhi wa sallam) would tighten his izaar (i.e. he stayed away from his wives in order to have more time for worship), spend the whole night awake (in prayer), and wake up his family." [Al-Bukhari and Muslim]

And she said:

"Allah's Messenger (sallallahu `alayhi wa sallam) used to exert more (in worship) on the last ten than on other nights." [Muslim]

My Neighbour

2006-09-28T23:50:00.000+08:00

What a way to start the day. I was rushing to work, hoping to catch the approaching bus when I bump into my neighbour at the foot of the stairs. The same elderly lady with her daughter, I assumed.

She asked of my name and started telling me about her.

"Lin, I'm a windower. I'm just telling you that. I actually wanted to go to Ahmad Ibrahim Mosque but I don't have any money for transport. Can you lend me $10? Just $10, Lin. When I have money, I pay you back".

I was quite suprised. I just moved in a week ago, and this was only our second encounter and already she's asking for money. And all this while, her daughter was there saying nothing. Well, she looked like a working lady don't tell me she do not have any money for her mum?

Spontaneously, I replied, "Sorry cik, fasting month I don't usually carry cash. To avoid from buying unnecessary food for break-fast. Sorry cik".

Shook her hands and off to the bus stop, and inside scolding her upside down for missing my bus. I don't mean to lie, I don't mean to be rude, especially in this holy month of Ramadhan. But this just shouldn't be the way.

Told mum about this and she agreed about not giving her the money. 'cos you never know when she'll ask for money again. As a matter of fact, she thinks that I should just ask the aunty that if her daughter is working and that there is a mosque nearby why didn't you just go there. Furthermore, Ahmad Ibrahim Mosque isn't that far from where I'm staying and the fare shouldn't even reach $10.

I am kinda suspecious of her and Mum advise to stay away from her. Heck care if she called me a arrogant. Sigh, some part of me said that I should just give it to her. Only Allah knows if she's telling the truth. Anyway, aren't we encouraged to donate especially in this month. On the other hand, I just find her plain suspecious.

And due to that, I reached work late! Great!!! Just great!!!

2006-09-27T00:38:00.000+08:00

Wooohooo! And I'm back. After, what?! 6/7 months since I closed down my previous blog. Yeah, I'm was the azlinrz.blogger. Why I shut it down? Well, lets just say, I was experince some turbulence in my life and I was kinda lost in my own world. Now that's over, I wanna start anew. A new life....